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tw - suicide attempt
toffuna101
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i tried to end my life for the second time.
**im safe now**so people may be wondering; are you ok now? well, im okay physically. but i dont know if im ok mentally. i should be ok, right? like, i have everything in life. i mean im ok... but am i really ok? i literally tried to kill myself yesterday. thats not normal guys. also when i came online i was bombarded by notifications so i had to make a separate post. thanks everyone for worrying about me. i shouldve reached out to a crisis service before it got to that point but to be honest with you ive had such bad experiences with childline lately and they dont really do much. ok samaritans is okay but my head wasnt thinking logically when it happened so i wasnt able to call anyone. i did call my dad but thats when i was doing the attempt because i was scared. i wasnt influenced by any voices. its just me that did this. me.
why didnt you call for an ambulance or to go A&E?
i already went to A&E last friday and they referred me to ARC Rapid Response and they came on the same day and they said if i got worse i need to call CAMHS before going to A&E again. so after i make this post im going to try and call them again to see if i actually need to go there or not. plus if i called an ambulance theyd send me to north london or essex, not hertfordshire where i live. therefore they wont have my health records. so therefore im only left with one option; to go to A&E
**again, im safe**
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unfortunately im under 18 so i wouldnt qualify to go in a safe house. also i did request to go voluntarily but they still didnt admit me into a psychiatric hospital. @River
yeah i know they can be quite awful. i was extremely lucky to be in a good psychiatric hospital last year.
ill call them because who knows when camhs will phone me.
i will try to stay safe thank you @eylah
I remember you talking about how childline put the phone down on you, and how slow ARC was to respond, and it's awful. And whilst A&E isn't the greatest place to be, it's the safest in the event of a mental health crisis. You are right about how awful the mental health services in this country are as well. It's tragic, but A&E always for this sort of stuff if an attempt has been made or might be made.
But on the next point, a student nurse offering medical advice is still a professional. They wouldn't be allowed to give medical advice unless they were trained to do so. Getting yourself to A&E is still critical. Depending on how the attempt was made, it can have delayed reactions, it can have all sort of effects and impacts that need to be looked at urgently. ARC are taking the piss waiting for so long. Rapid Response my arse. There are snails, riding on the back of turtles, that have faster reaction times than arc by the looks of things. And they are only mental health, not physical health related, and you do need checking to see that your physically fine after said attempt.
I'm glad your a bit better, and your safe, and know that we all care about you friend.
i went to A&E today because i managed to convince my dad and you know what they did? they discharged me saying that inpatient treatment is not within my best interests. i give up with these mental health services. they think that its best for me to stay at home and in the community when in reality im not being managed in the community right now.
thank you for the long response. i appreciate it.
i managed to be checked over by a doctor before i left A&E
@toffuna101 I'm glad you've been checked over, but they really are the most useless bastards aren't they for mental health. There's a reason we are ranked 2nd to last in terms of mental wellbeing in the world. The best option is to keep trying helplines, go to A&E whenever suicidal, and keep engaging and pushing ARC for as much as they can do.
It's not the same, but i had to fight tooth and nail for every single ounce of help with my brother. Transport costs to his special needs school, they cut it, it took several appeals, several legal loopholes, an entire year roughly of being told no again and again, before they caved and provided that basic support. The system relies on people being put off and giving up on support, but they can't ignore you if you always keep pushing and trying to get said support you deserve. I wish i could offer you better support, but this is the best advice i can give. Fight like crazy to get that support you need. I'm always here as are so many others to talk to about stuff.
i cant believe they initially refused to give transport to your brother. i would fight to get the support that i need but if camhs are adamant that i dont need inpatient support then theres nothing that i can do. theyll just say the same thing each time i go to A&E. another way i could go to inpatient care is if i talked with my psychiatrist, but since ive only seen my current one once i dont know him that well. he'll most likely just say the same thing as well. but even if i did go inpatient theres no guarantee that ill end up in the same psychiatric hospital as i did last time. they could move me somewhere else across the country which will make my mental state even worse. so theres always that risk. therefore i think thats why they dont want me to send me to a psychiatric hospital.
yeah and that too. i asked them if i could stay in the general hospital at least for a few days and camhs said no. so therefore they dont even want to keep me in a general hospital for my own sake.
good point.
Try this
thanks for the link
No problem, hope you're ok today