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Trigger warning!⚠️ tried to kms but failed now I’m stuck here and struggling
Penny
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About a month ago I tried to kms, long story short it failed and now I can’t get away from it. I don’t regret it at all, I just wish everyone would stop trying to tell me I’m okay and that it will all be fine. I’m feeling rlly numb and have no desire or will to do anything, just want to sleep… my sister (9) told me that she wished that I had succeeded in killing myself as I was a “useless waste of space”. I don’t know what to do, do I tell anyone, I don’t want to snitch but I’m really upset abt this and I’m struggling. Anyone have any advice?
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thank you for trusting us to share this, that’s a really brave step!
i’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. you didn’t deserve to hear those words from anyone, especially not your sister, no matter what, that kind of hurtful comment isn’t ok. i know it probably cut deep, especially when you’re already struggling.
it sounds like you’re carrying a lot right now, and i won’t pretend to have all the answers, but you don’t have to go through this alone. you’re not snitching if you reach out for help. talking to someone, like a therapist, a school counsellor, or even a trusted adult, could give you some space to feel safe and actually be heard without people just brushing it off. you deserve support that really sees what you’re going through!
we care about you. even if you feel numb or like you’ve got no energy right now, your pain matters, and your life matters. you are not a burden, even if your mind is trying to convince you otherwise. if you ever want to talk or need someone just to sit with the mess for a bit, we are all here.
in case you need, here are some helplines:
shout (24/7) - text ‘shout’ to 85258
samaritans (24/7) - call 116123
lifeline (24/7) - call 08088088000
papyrus (24/7) - call 08000684141
inspire wellbeing (24/7) - call 08081890036
community advice and listening line (24/7) - call 0800132737
knus (24/7) - whatsapp 07700165687
mind (9am-6pm) - call 03001233393
rethink mental illness (9:30am-4pm) - call 03005000927
kooth (12pm-10pm) - webchat on website
saneline (4pm-10pm) - call 03003047000
calm (5pm-12am) - call 0800585858
suicide prevention uk (6pm-12am) - call 08005870800
kelly’s heroes (6pm-11pm) - webchat on website
sos (8pm-12am) - call 08001151505
if you need immediate help pls call 111 / 999 or go to a&e - you deserve support!
you don’t have to have it all figured out right now. just keep holding on, even if it’s minute by minute. you’re not alone, ever. you’ve got this, always here for you
Here to echo what Shannon has said, she's given some amazing resources and advice there! You deserve to be heard, and the community here at The Mix are here for you too, your feelings are so important and we don't expect you to be okay, there's no time limit on how long it can take to start healing. But you do deserve to be on this Earth and get help, that's for certain