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Feel like crying
TheNightmare
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I feel like crying right now. I don’t want to go to my volunteering role tomorrow, and it’s really getting to me. I’ve been pushing myself to keep going, but it’s hard when I know they didn’t give me a fair chance on the tills. I wanted that experience, and being told I wasn’t suitable after only two tries has really knocked my confidence. I’m still doing other tasks, but it’s not what I hoped for, and now it just feels pointless.
What’s making it worse is how I keep facing setbacks. I didn’t enjoy college, then I failed a training course, and now this feels like another thing that didn’t work out. It’s frustrating because I’m ready for a paid job with structure and responsibility, but I’m still stuck. Tomorrow’s coming up fast, and I just don’t know how I’m going to push myself to go in. I hate that I keep posting about this, but I’m a bit upset with it all right now. I might just have a good cry in bed to let it all out. It's just been a bit shit job searching, uncertainty, negative experiences etc its not been fun I'm just hoping I'm getting there now.
What’s making it worse is how I keep facing setbacks. I didn’t enjoy college, then I failed a training course, and now this feels like another thing that didn’t work out. It’s frustrating because I’m ready for a paid job with structure and responsibility, but I’m still stuck. Tomorrow’s coming up fast, and I just don’t know how I’m going to push myself to go in. I hate that I keep posting about this, but I’m a bit upset with it all right now. I might just have a good cry in bed to let it all out. It's just been a bit shit job searching, uncertainty, negative experiences etc its not been fun I'm just hoping I'm getting there now.
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that all sounds really tough, and i completely get why you’re feeling this way. it’s so frustrating when you’re putting in the effort, trying to gain experience, and then not being given a fair shot, especially when you know you’re capable of more. two tries on the tills isn’t nearly enough to judge whether you were suitable, and it’s completely understandable that it knocked your confidence. it’s not that you weren’t good enough, its that they didn’t give you a real opportunity to improve. that is on them, not you.
i also hear you about feeling stuck. when it feels like you keep hitting roadblocks, college, the training course, and now this, it’s so easy to start questioning yourself, but honestly, none of those setbacks define what you’re actually capable of. you are ready for a paid job, for more structure, and for real responsibility. the fact that you’re still pushing yourself despite all this proves that. it’s just frustrating when the opportunities don’t seem to line up the way you need them.
please don’t feel bad for talking about it. you’re dealing with a lot, and you’re allowed to be upset. crying it out sounds like a solid plan, sometimes you just need to release all that frustration before you can reset. but just know that this situation doesn’t define you, and it won’t last forever. you are getting there, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now - i’m so proud of you
@shannon_164 Again thank you so much, honestly. I really appreciate every bit of what you said, especially not making me feel bad for posting about this a lot. It means so much that you’re so understanding and never make me feel like a burden. Hearing you say you’re proud of me and even hearing it from others here too really lifts me up more than you know. I honestly couldn’t appreciate it anymore if I tried. It’s so easy to get caught up in all the setbacks and feel like I’m not getting anywhere but having you and others here remind me that I’m still pushing through really helps. Thank you for always being so kind and encouraging, it genuinely means the world to me. I won't ever stop appreciating your support ❤️.
@Invisible_me I was dreading going to it on the morning and obviously last night too but it went a bit better better than last week, I did a different task than what I usually did too and they seemed more positive. Thanks so much for asking hope you're keeping good ❤️
Thank you @AnonymousToe . Hope uni is OK for you
Well done for going! And I'm so glad to hear that it went well. Sometimes doinga different task ca help and uts good that team were positive... hold onto this positive!
Really appreciate it fr