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Tired of life
Summerjune15
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90% of my life has been full of trauma or me ruining my life I am wasting my life away I need to get my ass into gear and sort it out i want to apply for apprentship in childcare I even might apply for hairdressing as a weekend job I want to go out with my friends I want the social life get back to college countine my driving lessons oh wait I can’t because of my SEIZURES can’t drive can’t apply for jobs can’t have the social life with my friends I AM STUCK IN 4 WALLS with a adult 24/7 when I die I want to die happy knowing I lived my life to the fullest fall over and get back up again make mistakes take in every moment with friends and family driving in the car with blasting music blast music and just live life like it’s my last day on earth I want to be known as passionate caring kind understanding I want to be known as the girl who fought for what was right she fought for her family and friends I don’t want to die and been known as the bitchy person who did nothing in life and just sat on her ass and been through traumaI don’t want to be that girl but I can’t do anything about it I just have to sit on my ass and wait and I am sick of it
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i hear you, and i can feel how much you want to live life to the fullest. it’s so frustrating to feel stuck when all you want to do is move forward, experience things, and build the life you dream of - i totally understand that feeling, you’re definitely not alone with it!
it’s completely understandable to feel this way, and i wish there was an easy fix but sadly not, though please don’t be too hard on yourself - you’re doing as best you can in a challenging situation, and your best is more than enough!
the fact that you want all these things shows how much fight and passion you have in you. i get that your seizures might make certain things harder, but they don’t define you or your future - you sound so so determined to keep fighting for the life you want, regardless of what life throws at you, and that takes a lot, i’m proud of you for that! there are still so many ways to build the life you want, even if it takes a different path than you expected or those around you, your journey is you own, it doesn’t need to look like anybody else’s or what anyone expected yours to look like! you’re already someone who cares deeply, who fights for what’s right, and who doesn’t give up, even when it feels like everything is against you - that is the person people will remember.
i know waiting and feeling stuck is exhausting, but you are more than your circumstances. i really do believe that you will find a way forward as you’re such a strong and determined person - keep fighting, you’ve got this @Summerjune15 - i believe in you