My gp is so supportive but its taken a while for me to get there. I had very similar issues not being taken seriously, struggle to get apo with her etc and now she's lovely and just gets me.
When I saw the other doc few times he will see me and if he felt like I was holding back or I requested he booked me in himself with her for like the next day.
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Thank you @Invisible_me π It is a rather confusing and difficult situation to manage ans surprised I am even doing this. I attended my appointment on Wednesday with the ED health nurse and I'm booked in again this coming Wednesday - anxious about it coz it's in the same place I had therpy and at the same time (do im likely to cross paths with my old therapist - rather not do that). She has since phoned me and emailed me to just check in with how I am and has been getting CMHT crisis team to ring me as well just to ensure I'm safe and can use my safety plan and that I don't require urgent support from them etc. I am slightly concerned the GP [dr M] I'm seeing isn't going to be helpful be dismissive but maybe I can give them a change as it is booked for a 15 min appt so maybe that's a passive that they are going to help me π€·π½ββοΈ. I have built up a relationship with my primary GP [Dr S], he's been amazing at getting me support and referring me to other when he feels unable to support me - i would prefer to see him but maybe this Dr M (although previously dismissive) will give a fresh pair of eyes ro the situation π€·π½ββοΈ. Idk if the nurse could do anything coz she's not attached to the surgery at all the only communications she tends to have with them is to issue prescription meds, ask for my latest results or ask them to complete some testing. So not sure she could even help the situation (but no harm mentioning it tk her. This issue with phoning up for an appointment with Dr S is that he's probs not available due to being duty dr and oncall dr, probs would require waiting longer for it - yes I would have it as a back up with if the appt with Dr M doesnt go well, but don't want to repeat anythjng it's a struggle getting it out in the first place π. My gp is so supportive but its taken a while for me to get there. I had very similar issues not being taken seriously, struggle to get apo with her etc and now she's lovely and just gets me. I totally get this Dr S gets me and has taken me some time to trust the system again and trust professionals. When I saw the other doc few times he will see me and if he felt like I was holding back or I requested he booked me in himself with her for like the next day. I wish my surgery operated like that but only receptions can book with other GPs, and when you see someone they can only book you in to see them again they can see other GPs appointment scheduled π© Thank you for the message π idk what i would do without this community
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Im so annoyed with this now. Just had a phone call from my GP practice cancelling my appointment as the Dr M that I was seeing isn't in that day - why book me in to see them then? Now I am booked to see a completely new Dr that ive not seen before - Dr D. Im still nervous about going an anxious but im hoping seen as ive not seen them they may have a diffent perspective an view of my situation and offer better help maybe. I'm scared to open up fully about my SH and SI mainly because its someone new - yes it's on my record and form but it still feels a bit uncomfortable. In a way I still don't really want to go because I dont feel like im going to be heard completely and they are just going to address one issue and avoid the rest. Im just holding out till the day. Ive been making notes of things to bring up incase I shutdown when im there. The main thing I'm looking at it to get new medication to try because the one I'm on and have been for a while dont seem to do much anymore (^as mentioned in the previous post/comments^) π€π»I can maintain hopeful for this appointment and continue to fight this long tiring battle
eylah wrote: Β» so proud of you lottie keep going i rly hope they listen to you bc you deserve to be listened to.
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» eylah wrote: Β» so proud of you lottie keep going i rly hope they listen to you bc you deserve to be listened to. Thank you @eylah β€οΈ I do hope they losteb to me this time round π€π»
Invisible_me wrote: Β» Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Im so annoyed with this now. Just had a phone call from my GP practice cancelling my appointment as the Dr M that I was seeing isn't in that day - why book me in to see them then? Now I am booked to see a completely new Dr that ive not seen before - Dr D. Im still nervous about going an anxious but im hoping seen as ive not seen them they may have a diffent perspective an view of my situation and offer better help maybe. I'm scared to open up fully about my SH and SI mainly because its someone new - yes it's on my record and form but it still feels a bit uncomfortable. In a way I still don't really want to go because I dont feel like im going to be heard completely and they are just going to address one issue and avoid the rest. Im just holding out till the day. Ive been making notes of things to bring up incase I shutdown when im there. The main thing I'm looking at it to get new medication to try because the one I'm on and have been for a while dont seem to do much anymore (^as mentioned in the previous post/comments^) π€π»I can maintain hopeful for this appointment and continue to fight this long tiring battle Hey... ohh that's fustrating and only adds to your anxiety that you already had. Sometimes these changes can happen, doc may have booked leave for that day since then etc.. but atleast theyvr contacted you before hand and booked you in. Some don't bother letting you know and you end up turning up to see someone different or just send you a text and ask you to rebook self. I appreciate the anxiety of seeing someone else, as you said though it may be a case that a fresh pair of eyes can do good and you're going in with a purpose of new meds/treatment? Are you receiving counselling of some sort? Some docs depending on your age may say to have counselling alongside meds so useful bearing that mind just incase. Sharing your self harm and suicidal thoughts can require a lot of courage and even if it is on your notes it's still hard and scary to re bring it up. Exactly same here if I was yo see another doc I would be scared to mention it in fact forget mentioning sh and si I wont even let them weigh me. Write ut down. You can ask the doc to read your past noted (they should already do this but...) if that helps, that way you knkw they already know. Remember if worse comes to the worse and so you knkw at the bavk of your head yoyve got the option of asking to see Dr S and they should respect this. When is your appt? I hope this goes well.
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Invisible_me wrote: Β» Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Im so annoyed with this now. Just had a phone call from my GP practice cancelling my appointment as the Dr M that I was seeing isn't in that day - why book me in to see them then? Now I am booked to see a completely new Dr that ive not seen before - Dr D. Im still nervous about going an anxious but im hoping seen as ive not seen them they may have a diffent perspective an view of my situation and offer better help maybe. I'm scared to open up fully about my SH and SI mainly because its someone new - yes it's on my record and form but it still feels a bit uncomfortable. In a way I still don't really want to go because I dont feel like im going to be heard completely and they are just going to address one issue and avoid the rest. Im just holding out till the day. Ive been making notes of things to bring up incase I shutdown when im there. The main thing I'm looking at it to get new medication to try because the one I'm on and have been for a while dont seem to do much anymore (^as mentioned in the previous post/comments^) π€π»I can maintain hopeful for this appointment and continue to fight this long tiring battle Hey... ohh that's fustrating and only adds to your anxiety that you already had. Sometimes these changes can happen, doc may have booked leave for that day since then etc.. but atleast theyvr contacted you before hand and booked you in. Some don't bother letting you know and you end up turning up to see someone different or just send you a text and ask you to rebook self. I appreciate the anxiety of seeing someone else, as you said though it may be a case that a fresh pair of eyes can do good and you're going in with a purpose of new meds/treatment? Are you receiving counselling of some sort? Some docs depending on your age may say to have counselling alongside meds so useful bearing that mind just incase. Sharing your self harm and suicidal thoughts can require a lot of courage and even if it is on your notes it's still hard and scary to re bring it up. Exactly same here if I was yo see another doc I would be scared to mention it in fact forget mentioning sh and si I wont even let them weigh me. Write ut down. You can ask the doc to read your past noted (they should already do this but...) if that helps, that way you knkw they already know. Remember if worse comes to the worse and so you knkw at the bavk of your head yoyve got the option of asking to see Dr S and they should respect this. When is your appt? I hope this goes well. Thank you @Invisible_me β€οΈ I am glad they contact me now instead of later on. Im hoping Dr D will bring a new perspective and consider the change in medication - as that is kind of what im looking for with this appointment. Im not recieveing any sort of counselling or therapy anymore - although the ED health nurse is chasing up my referral to CEDT and whether on not they will take me on now. There is a potential that they will suggest therapy/counselling alongside the meds as in not 100% sure if they can prescribe the meds that I was looking at, but at that point it is something CEDT can do all going well with the referral - so I am bearing that in mind currently. I have been writing down how I feel and what im struggling with mainly - usually my GP is good at reading my notes if not i will remind them to do this so I dont have to repeat alot. π€π»they don't have the focus towards my ED which it has been the last couple of times I've seen them. My appointment is February 10th now so only about 2 weeks to wait which is better than 5 weeks. If this doesn't go to plan I will try and get an appointment or phone call with Dr S. Thank you again for you kind words β€οΈ
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Thank you again @Invisible_me π I dont really want to see Dr D but I know if i want things sorted soon I have to go through with it and cant wait for Dr S to become available. I'll try not to overthink it - that's when I usually shut down anyway so π€π» i can stay out my thoughts for those 15 minutes at rhe appointment. Idk if i can speak to Dr D about the referral as its currently in limbo with CMHT as it was denied but was told once I finish ED therapy then they would look at the referral again - i might just ask Dr D about it though
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Just another quick update from me on this, So im even more confused with my appointment as Dr S made a comment on my record to say "needs tci rev gp f2f" so now idk if im gonna get another appointment with the GP i actually want to see. But also for the time being im still going to be under the eating disorder team and be seeing them for physical health monitoring mainly. The health nurse I've been seeing as been amazing, she has chased my referral to CEDT which has been left with both team admins to see what's happening but in the mean time my old therapist has agreed to provide wellbeing calls whilst i await the referral/assessment. Im not sure how i feel about it coz i feel like im gonna lie and say things are fine even when things aren't okay - coz i don't want them to get concerned and put a safeguarding thing in as that's what they've done in the past. I also hope they don't focus on the whole eating disorder and actually focus on my overall wellbeing But I guess time will tell with these. Also dont need to see the health nurse again till the 12th so I have like 2 appointmments that week which will be "fun"
But also for the time being im still going to be under the eating disorder team and be seeing them for physical health monitoring mainly.
The health nurse I've been seeing as been amazing, she has chased my referral to CEDT which has been left with both team admins to see what's happening but in the mean time my old therapist has agreed to provide wellbeing calls whilst i await the referral/assessment.
Hey. I.m not too sure what TCI means. But im presuming this means to have something review with a gp face to face.. because his put it on the system.doesnt neccerdarily mean with him just means that he has noticed it and put a note on the system. Nor do I think this will affect your current appt. However, I would phone up to confirm and at the same ask if you can speak to Dr S seeing that his made the note and you feel comfortable. If the doc I'd understanding of you and your needs I'm sure he won't mind! That's good she's chased it up. I understand you fear of safeguarding being put in place if you be honest but they are aware of your needs, history. Maybe gage it., open up slowely. I know the default askwer is im okay... change it to " things are still difficult but im trying"... the more they know the more they support.
Sian321 wrote: Β» Hey @Lottie5433 , thank you for keeping us posted I just wanted to check in to ask how you're feeling today? It sounds like this has been such a draining process trying to get the appointments and support that you need, and advocating for yourself like this whilst you're also struggling takes so much stregnth. But also for the time being im still going to be under the eating disorder team and be seeing them for physical health monitoring mainly. This sounds like a shift, Lottie! How are you feeling about being under that team? The health nurse I've been seeing as been amazing, she has chased my referral to CEDT which has been left with both team admins to see what's happening but in the mean time my old therapist has agreed to provide wellbeing calls whilst i await the referral/assessment. This is also so wonderful to hear! I'm really glad that you have someone in your corner like this and that your nurse has been so amazing. I can imagine that's a relief, and great also to still have contact with your old therapist. You mentioned that a part of you wants to hold back on sharing about just how much you're struggling now because you're afraid that safeguarding might get involved again. I hear you, and I can see just how daunting that feels esspecially when things are already overwhelming and you don't want to feel like you're losing any control over your situation. I wonder if you'd feel able to share that dilemma with your nurse or therapist? E.g. to let them know you feel conflicted because there are things you really do want to share with them, but you're scared about what will happen if you do? Maybe sharing that dilemma could be a helpful middle ground where you're still able to let them in, but you're also going at a pace that feels right now you? Sending stregnth, Lottie, and keep us posted You deserve to be treated with kindness and care!
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Hey. I.m not too sure what TCI means. But im presuming this means to have something review with a gp face to face.. because his put it on the system.doesnt neccerdarily mean with him just means that he has noticed it and put a note on the system. Nor do I think this will affect your current appt. However, I would phone up to confirm and at the same ask if you can speak to Dr S seeing that his made the note and you feel comfortable. If the doc I'd understanding of you and your needs I'm sure he won't mind! That's good she's chased it up. I understand you fear of safeguarding being put in place if you be honest but they are aware of your needs, history. Maybe gage it., open up slowely. I know the default askwer is im okay... change it to " things are still difficult but im trying"... the more they know the more they support. Thanks again for your comment @Invisible_me it means alot. Since I saw the comment I've been in a bit of a Google spiral trying to work out the why? The 'tci' just means to come in i found out - i don't really want to phone my gp surgery i hate calling them π I get so awkward. Im just going to wait coz last time when a similar comment was made I had a phone call to book an appointment - im just gonna wait and see π. I do like that the nurse chased up the referal as she has helped quite a bit and I've only seen her 3 times. I try to gage it when I speak to anyone from the team about my MH, and whenever the questions start prying more and more I close up and say things are fine than I basically shut down and say very little. I'll give it ago and try to change how I respond but idk I'm still unsure π
Lottie5433 wrote: Β» Yeah I'm just going to wait and see with this appointment it might be nothing and I'm jsut stressing about nothing. It is nice to have a break from appointments- no vampires taking my blood this week π€£π€£. Yeah @Invisible_me i have recently taken up supply TA work with an agency but the stress is coming from my normal job as i have a meeting with some person from like head office. Then my GM is making a separate meeting with me also for the following week so I'm stressing about all those. How do you find the supply TA work - ive only done 2 shifts so far but going back next week for 2 more
the GP prob won't let you out in floods of tears anyway (well mine wouldn't)
cryings is a natural response sometimes and your body just cries, calming down is also a natural response and in way your body naturally "temporarily calms down when ut needs to".
No vampires taking blood π€£π€£. When I saw the male doc first time and I wasn't saying anything he was like dknt look at this vampire and say what you need to lol he called himself a vampire.
So I've done TA 5 years or so.. but I prefer having long term contracts where I know what and when to expect supply is okay but I find uncertainty difficult.
Im taking it that I don't have another appointment yet as ive not had a call to book one hopefully it's just the one on Monday π€π». I have been preparing as much as I can by writing down things ive noticed in myself hopefully I can show/tell Dr D about it on Monday./quote] That's good amd hope the appointment goes well. Remember you can always hand the notes over to them for them to read jf you don't feel ablw to say it. Jus take the app as it goes and go with your emotions... don't beat yourself over it, so if you do cry it's fine.. I cat comment on your docs and others etc but mine would give me some time and space but obviously it would depend on their time schedules. The last 2 shifts I've had have been in a primary school as a SEN 1:1 TA which has been rewarding but I'm also in a mindset that I don't want to go back tomorrow or next week but ive already agreed to them and need the cash - i think im only sont want to go because I get exhausted with my MH and then supporting a complex child too is draining anyway. But I do enjoy the work π It can be draining!! But guve yourself praise for trying to work..and good about supply is you have a break in between as well.
The last 2 shifts I've had have been in a primary school as a SEN 1:1 TA which has been rewarding but I'm also in a mindset that I don't want to go back tomorrow or next week but ive already agreed to them and need the cash - i think im only sont want to go because I get exhausted with my MH and then supporting a complex child too is draining anyway. But I do enjoy the work π
