I hate my obessesion (TW: kink)

Amy22 · March 31

I hate the fact that i read devinart TF stories and blueberry tf stories as well. They feel explicit and today i did it again. I just feel like its weird I like this.

dyoverdx · March 31

What is this? I’m curious

Amy22 · April 1

dyoverdx wrote: »

What is this? I’m curious

Oh um well I have this *interest* of mine which I had for a very long time. It goes back well its a long story

. When I was a kid I loved the film Charlie and the Chocolate Factory the 2005 version of course. So there's this scene where one of the characters eats this gum and turns into a giant blueberry. I kind of found it very fascinating at first. Later on I would found out that the art website called deviant would have stories and fanart based on blueberry inflation basically. I don't know what it is that makes me feel good looking at it really. Maybe it's the obscure bodies or descriptions. I then got into other tf (transformation fic stories like animals and body changing and swapping, other ones as well). At some point I felt perverted and weird because I just felt like some weirdo who felt like a creep reading these horfic stories. Maybe I found comfort in it. I've always said I felt more like I had extra testerone in me sometimes. So yeah that's basically my story *sigh* 😟😟. Again, sorry for the rant it's probably a super long story which wouldn't fit all onto this page really.

Amy22 · April 2

The truth is I am not a great person at all and I am really a horrible disgusting weirdo deep down sometimes because of the things I read and love.

ella · April 4

I have seen a couple of your posts about this topic @Amy22 and just wanted to let you know The Mix will always be a judgement-free space when talking about kinks

I'm hearing that you're really struggling with this right now, but I want to reassure you that you are not horrible or disgusting or weird for having kinks and it is really normal to feel embarrassed or even ashamed of your kinks, especially for women and non-binary folk. This kind of sexual shame is generally ingrained in us from a very young age. We often internalise this shame and carry it with us through all our early sexual experiences!

Kinks are a fun and playful way to explore our sexuality, and as long as they are safe and consensual, they are perfectly okay! The more we normalise them, the more we can get from writing our own sexual journeys!

While you might feel really isolated with this right now, kinks are a lot more common than you might think but a lot of people hide them out of fear of being judged. There are actually a lot of accredited sex educators who talk about kink and it might be really beneficial for you to give them a follow!

Milly Evans
HERE is a link to their book
Ruby Rare
HERE is a link to her book
Eva Bloom
Em Cheeky

We are always here to listen, Amy- please reach out any time

Amy22 · April 4

Thank you so much @ella I will definitely look into those people for sure. I just felt weird about liking specifically because of how that film showed someone turning into one ish and like I always feel perverted for liking a scene so awkward and uncomfortable. Idk really. Honestly, thank you so much though as I really appreciate the support on here.

celestial_dog · May 20

@Amy22 I hope nobody I know sees this, but I'm slightly kinky too if I'm honest, similar to yours (transformation-wise). I think it's definitely a comfort thing for me, it's not really sexual if that makes sense, magical worlds and things have always been an escape from reality to me. When I was younger the thought of being able to become an animal was always comforting for me, especially because Im autistic and struggle socially. It's made me feel very angry at myself and even su!cidal at some point. I wish that there was a clear explanation to why kinks exist, and I wish they were acceptable and not seen as weird or perverted about random things. It's nice to talk about it with someone else that's similar though.

celestial_dog · May 20

I'm sorry for ranting on your post but I've never spoken about this before and it's helped me understand myself better, so thank you.

Amy22 · May 20

Hey @celestial_dog you don't need to apologise for reaching out on here. In fact I am glad you have decided to speak about your experiences of dealing with interests and kinks. It's nice to know that there are people who do life tf fanfics specifically. I too often struggled with it a lot especially growing up, even now as a 21 year old. In fact this thread in a way was created for other people to talk about their experiences with kinks and fetishes etc. I will be honest I am very into blueberry tf and stuff which can be given an raised eyebrow by some. i think for me its the magic and I dont know really. I often felt strange about it but it's something I am slowly learning and overcoming. I hope this thread was helpful for you

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Always here for you,

Hugs,

Amy22

I hate my obessesion (TW: kink)

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