A rant

Going to uni has allowed me to become my own person but it's also made me see how toxic home can be. I don't want to be apart of it. I'm 24 and I'm tired of it. I'm aware that she didn't have a very good bringing and experienced a lot of losses growing but at the same time, I can't keep sacrificing myself to keep her happy. I don't think she wants us to fly the nest. She doesn't want any of my adult siblings to move out unless we're married...yeah that's not going to happen. My oldest sibling moved out and she's flourishing, now completing a PhD. I swear sometimes it feels like my mother doesn't want to raise independent and strong women, instead she wants housewives and I'm TIRED of it. 

At this point, I do not care if she doesn't like the fact that I'm dating a non Christian who is not the same race as me and I will never allow her to make me feel ashamed of it. I worried so much about telling my mum when really, I shouldn't have, either way, it it my decision and if she has a problem, it's not mine to carry. 

I will not allow her to play top trumps with us (her children)
I will not sacrifice my happiness to please her