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A reason to live.
HowDoYouTalkAboutIt
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I need a place to speak so I wrote on here.
My mind doesn't seem to settle anymore. Everymoment it will change and is never set in stone. I will feel fine one minute and the next I'm in a hole trying to get out with no hope of reaching the top. I need a reason to live. My purpose its always seemed was to help others but that doesn't happen anymore. I then wanted to join the army and still do and I've shut so many doors with my mind set in path as that was what I was going to do but now that doesnt seem possible with my mental health, I don't think they'll let me in anymore.
So now what? What can I strive for? What do I have to push me on? I'm not at the point of suicidal and I don't want people to think that or feel pity on me I just need to a place to voice out. I just don't know what to do
My mind doesn't seem to settle anymore. Everymoment it will change and is never set in stone. I will feel fine one minute and the next I'm in a hole trying to get out with no hope of reaching the top. I need a reason to live. My purpose its always seemed was to help others but that doesn't happen anymore. I then wanted to join the army and still do and I've shut so many doors with my mind set in path as that was what I was going to do but now that doesnt seem possible with my mental health, I don't think they'll let me in anymore.
So now what? What can I strive for? What do I have to push me on? I'm not at the point of suicidal and I don't want people to think that or feel pity on me I just need to a place to voice out. I just don't know what to do
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first of all, have you spoken to your GP about how youre feeling? you say you're not at the point of suicidal which is good, but it's important to get help or you ay reach that point..mental health is a slippery slope and its hard to get out of when it's got its grips on you, but it is possible, you won't always feel this way
your purpose you feel was helping others, which is good, but you need to look after yourself first, you can't support or help others if you're not looking after yourself.
my dream was to be in the army too, before mental health got in the way, now I know that's not possible, but there are plenty of other dreams out there, it's just about finding the right one.
there's loads of reasons to stay alive here https://community.themix.org.uk/discussion/comment/3627216#Comment_3627216 not everyones reasons arent the same, but maybe something there could trigger a reason for you?
i also shared this on fb last night and thought it was pretty fitting to put here
Maybe there are some volunteering programs in your area that can give you the opportunity to help others
Well done for sharing your feelings with us here. It can feel really confusing when your mind keeps on changing, but often writing and sharing these thoughts can make it easier to cope with
I just wanted to echo what the others have said, as I think they shared some really great advice. I also wanted to add that it's okay to not know what you want, it's okay to not have things figured out. You're doing great
I think @ThePigeons idea of volunteering is a good one. This can be a good way of trying a few different things until you find what you love, without the pressures/commitments of a fixed career. And, by volunteering your time you are helping others, which is what you said you like to do
Take good care and do keep us updated!