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Wondering if I'm getting better

moon_nightmoon_night Posts: 1 Literally just got here
edited October 2019 in Health & Wellbeing
is it normal to fell happy some days and then fill like if the only thing you want to do is die?
at this point i'm confused ... my worst time in depression was 4 years ago ( is not diagnosed) ...but at this point of my life is not like before, so i wonder if i still have it and i'm just hiding it before i accepted it 4 years ago or if i'm actually getting better


  • StephanieStephanie Posts: 727 Super Moderator
    Hey moon_night,

    Welcome to The Mix, great to have you here :heart:

    It sounds like you are struggling a bit, we are here for you.

    Do you have any support in place?

    I've moved your thread over to our health and well-being section.as people may be able to relate, and offer their support. 

    Sending hugs :heart:
                                   "Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times if only one remembers to turn on the light" 

    - Albus Dumbledore 

    "Like when I was down you just had that smile that made me feel like everything's worthwhile. Thinking of the day when you went away, what a life to take, what a bond to break, I'll be missing you"

  • GemmaGemma Posts: 106 Moderator
    Hi moon_night
    I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so confused but you are not alone in constantly feeling up and down so much. 

    You mentioned that this time was not like it was four years ago, when your depression was at it's worst. Would you like to talk any more about how it is different from now?

    We're all here for you. 
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,935 Extreme Poster
    Welcome :) I don't have a lot to add, but it's understandable you're confused and the parts where you feel like you just want to die must be horrible. I think regardless of if you still have it or you're getting better, you deserve help to ease those low days and to be your healthiest - do you think seeing a doctor would help or have you got any other ideas?

    We're here if you want to talk about things any more. Sending hugs <3
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m ✨dead✨ England 🏠Posts: 10,967 An Original Mixlorian
    Welcome! Wanting to die is an awful feeling no matter what the diagnosis and deservse support. Well done for reaching out on here. I hope it helps you to reach out else where if felt comfortable. 
    𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐒𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝. 💕💕
  • coc0maccoc0mac Posts: 532 Incredible Poster

    It sounds like you are coping with some difficult and confusing feelings at the moment, so well done for reaching out. You absolutely did the right thing by sharing it here :smile:

    When it comes to feelings like these, often the very best things we can do is to talk about it with others. I am just wondering how you would feel about visiting the GP to talk about your mental health, or talking to somebody you trust? Talking about our feelings isn't always easy, so if it's okay if you are not feeling ready for this just yet. We can help you with that :heart: 

    Take good care x
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