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Nobody. Nothing. Never
Former Member
Posts: 177 Helping Hand
Grief and emptiness for manipulation
I’m always manipulated by my thoughts, my views, my opinions, my trust.
It doesn’t matter I’m damaged, contaminated, sad, scared, trapped, alone or dead inside.
Why empty of the bad things, the words, the silence of it all it’s all a secret. I’ve spoke about it all once, but it’s difficult to see me, I have thoughts but they stay as thoughts, scares me to say, but I’m not bothered of peoples judgments so why?
I grieve for the person I see in bad memories, in my nightmares. Little me.
I can’t cope with the burden of it all right now.
I wasn’t completely broken then, I am now.
I don’t feel like any part of me is attached, my arms aren’t mine, my legs don’t belong to me, my heart beats but I’m not feeling or living it. Who and why am I here
Anger because I’ll never feel guilty for anyone again. I was made to feel guilty for things I wasn’t willing to do, that got ignored. If anyone tries to make me feel guilty for life, remember guilt is abuse.
I’m always manipulated by my thoughts, my views, my opinions, my trust.
It doesn’t matter I’m damaged, contaminated, sad, scared, trapped, alone or dead inside.
Why empty of the bad things, the words, the silence of it all it’s all a secret. I’ve spoke about it all once, but it’s difficult to see me, I have thoughts but they stay as thoughts, scares me to say, but I’m not bothered of peoples judgments so why?
I grieve for the person I see in bad memories, in my nightmares. Little me.
I can’t cope with the burden of it all right now.
I wasn’t completely broken then, I am now.
I don’t feel like any part of me is attached, my arms aren’t mine, my legs don’t belong to me, my heart beats but I’m not feeling or living it. Who and why am I here
Anger because I’ll never feel guilty for anyone again. I was made to feel guilty for things I wasn’t willing to do, that got ignored. If anyone tries to make me feel guilty for life, remember guilt is abuse.
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Your post sounds like you are struggling a lot currently, would you be able to tell me a bit more about what has caused you to feel this way?
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