I actually want to cry. It's stupid really because I don't actually know how this appointment is going to go but I'm freaking out because they've been so strict regarding my medication recently. All of my workers are off this week or usually I'd have my support worker to help me. I managed to get hold of one of her colleagues because I know her but I feel stupid asking her to come with me - as though I should get a grip and act like an adult. I actually don't know how I will cope if they take even just painkillers off me, let alone propanalol.