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what the hell happened
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so i had the weirdest thing. after lines upon lines of coke and some pot with some opium and some beer i just had the weirdest most unwanted time ever. everything started off cool, how i ususally feel doing shit, but then it just got weird. i started analyzing *everything* i was even deeply analyzing how my friend played mario. and absoutly everything that was said and everything about my life. and because i had to i said everything that i thought. and everything i thought about, no matter how normal of a thing, it wasn't. i found it to be the most fucked up thing in the world. eventually after giving a reason and thoughts and a future to everything that has ever happened in my life it just got to me. i couldn't see a future or any happiness or anything at all. had i been alone i am damn sure i would have just died. like literally. all i wanted to do was like slit my wrists and shoot myself. now i don't mean this in any way to offend anybody or any way that is inaproproiate, but it scared me so much. and no matter how hard i tried i could not stop thinking the things i was thinking, putting a reason to everything, finding everything to be horribly messed up. and i just couldn't take it anymore. i tried to occupy myself with other things but i couldn't. just i guess, has anybody had anything like that happened? it was just so unpleasent and dead fucking scary.
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Opium? Are you sure?
Oh and you really shouldn't mix opiates with alcohol, its a very easy way to depress your CNS dangerously.
I best be sure thats what it was or theres going to be a child out there who is going to be very sorry one day. And thanks for that bit of advice. Shall keep that in mind next time. I always seem to be off the walls when I'm on coke, but I've never been all depressed and kinda psycho also. And I hope never to be again
There is a LOT more "opium" on the market than actual opium, if you see what I mean.
Mixing cocaine and alcohol really isnt wise. I know a lot of people feel they go well together but they are a very dangerous mix, more so than the two drugs seperately. They mix and join in the body producing a more addictive, more damaging chemical.
Look after yourself.
Could be any number of things really, bunk mostly. The placebo effect is a strong one.
What does the stuff you get look like exactly?
Did you re-smoke the ash?