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Need help r.e BENZOS!!!
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Right I'll start from the beginning.
On at least 10-15 5mg (sometimes up to like 150mg) temazys for about a month and a half. Withdrawals almost cold turkey... 2 weeks of shit. anxious, thinking I was a bit mad, depressed socially paranoid etc.
Then just as I get over that I started the same pattern again I was withdrawing like never before after just 2 days without any, and I had dreams that would make me cry!! Then I got hold of 200 valiums a few days ago, I've been having them as and when I feel I need them and sometimes when I'm having drinks just for the hell of it coz I have to drink dangerous amounts to get drunk. But sometimes I'll take quite a few just for buzz.
Thing is though I am absolutely SHITTING MYSELF knowing that I'm gonna run out and these withdrawals are gonna be like never before, I had bad twitches last time this time I'm more worried about seizures, I'm going to try and taper but if it becomes too much I'm going to go to my docter. It's something I really don't want to do because I promised him I wouldn't take anything illegally after coming off my dihydrocodeine prescription/addiction.
I don't know what he'll say or do. And I don't know what to say or do but it looks like I'm gonna have to go to doctors and explain.
I'm in a really bad situation. What will the doctor likely say? And I know he'll probably prescribe me something, but what's he gonna prescribe me. I've been before and told him I'd been taking 70mg Valium everyday for 3 weeks and he didn't give me anything! This time it's serious and I'm really really scared about whats coming please give me some advice.
CALLING ROLLY,BONG AND THE REST!
On at least 10-15 5mg (sometimes up to like 150mg) temazys for about a month and a half. Withdrawals almost cold turkey... 2 weeks of shit. anxious, thinking I was a bit mad, depressed socially paranoid etc.
Then just as I get over that I started the same pattern again I was withdrawing like never before after just 2 days without any, and I had dreams that would make me cry!! Then I got hold of 200 valiums a few days ago, I've been having them as and when I feel I need them and sometimes when I'm having drinks just for the hell of it coz I have to drink dangerous amounts to get drunk. But sometimes I'll take quite a few just for buzz.
Thing is though I am absolutely SHITTING MYSELF knowing that I'm gonna run out and these withdrawals are gonna be like never before, I had bad twitches last time this time I'm more worried about seizures, I'm going to try and taper but if it becomes too much I'm going to go to my docter. It's something I really don't want to do because I promised him I wouldn't take anything illegally after coming off my dihydrocodeine prescription/addiction.
I don't know what he'll say or do. And I don't know what to say or do but it looks like I'm gonna have to go to doctors and explain.
I'm in a really bad situation. What will the doctor likely say? And I know he'll probably prescribe me something, but what's he gonna prescribe me. I've been before and told him I'd been taking 70mg Valium everyday for 3 weeks and he didn't give me anything! This time it's serious and I'm really really scared about whats coming please give me some advice.
CALLING ROLLY,BONG AND THE REST!
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http://drugscope.soutron.com/helpfinder.asp
http://www.hullcc.gov.uk/portal/page?_pageid=221,107870&_dad=portal&_schema=PORTAL
Also, you need realise what you are doing, so do what you can to reduce the harm you are doing at the moment, dont drink alcohol with them and try to reduce what you are using.
Blagsta is right, the best people to talk to about this may well be your local drug service rather than your GP.
I'll just keep the dosages really low and keep cutting down and try not to think about them, I'll be fine. I got myself in this mess I can get myself out of it. :thumb:
Dont swap abuse of one drug for abuse of a set of drugs.
benzo addiction is some serious shit!! never gonna misuse them again I've learnt my lesson this time, believe!
Didn't take any from friday until today, woke up shaking so bad i couldn't roll a cig! Took 1 and I feel a little better, my head felt like it was gonna pop. Only got 9 left though and I don't really think it's enough to see me through! and I haven't got the money to get any more. I think my only option now is my GP. Any advice anyone because I'm feeling like utter shit and I'm worried about seizures. :shocking:
Get to your GP as soon as possible though mate, yours is a matter of priority i would say.
I'm scared shitless and I'm nervous about telling the doc coz I promised him I wouldn't do anymore drugs illegally and I feel real bad which makes everything worse. :nervous:
Well he isnt there to judge you mate, hopfully he will just give you his best advice.
Good luck mate. :thumb:
I'm sure he's seen it all before mate, probably come across situations 10 times worse. Don't worry about it, and just tell him the truth.
All the best.
I'm going to try and take half pills instead of the full 10mg anyway and see how I go on that. I really want off them. I don't find them mentally addicting in the slightest anymore. I'm changing to a pretty much drug free life and this is the beginning... let's see where I go. I'll keep posting updates on here and still participate in the forums though!
And I don't mean totally drug-free I mean only pills at raves and coke on the odd occaision and benzos can be life savers on comedowns. BUT some serious moderation is needed in my use and I've learnt the hard way, multiple times. And for those of you that don't know; I'm only 17, suprised? :wave:
And of course you know full well not to drink alcohol with them.
I also read my report card which said that I was suspected as a drug seeker seeking benzos from a psych, when I had REAL anxiety and did not ask for benzos in particular at all. He tried giving me Carbemazepine thinking I was fucking bipolar which I rejected after taking just one tablet because I had panic attacks and pins+needles the next day. I am now anxiety free though, just need to get off the frickin benzos. Reading that pissed me off though because when I needed help with anxiety I never got it, and I probably wouldn't have ended up were I am now. Just wish they would listen and believe what I'm saying a bit more. Now my medical records say that I'm a drug misuser and have tried seeking drugs through a psych and GP. Takes the piss... if I didn't have anxiety I wouldn't want it on my records. If I didn't have anxiety I wouldn't ask for help for it. It's the nobhead psychiatrist who thought I was biploar thought this because I refused to take medication for a condition I didn't think I had.
NHS and mainstream psychiatry is bullshit, I'll never trust another doctor again. And thanks to a report full of crap, they will never trust me either... which could cause me problems in later life if I ever need anything slightly narcotic prescribing. :banghead:
Go in with anxiety-come out misdiagnosed bipolar and labeled a drug seeker and abuser. Great eh? I only told them I'd TRIED ecstacy and cannabis and self-medicated with diazepam due to the fact that I was not getting anywhere or anything from my GP for a genuine condition. :rolleyes:
The problem is, especially with GP's, is that they have to be experts in everything so they do make mistakes.
If you dont like what is on your record then discuss it with your doctor when he gets back, lay out the whole history for him and ask for it to be changed.
have a look at my posting called message from grandad or something. Benzo addiction is a f'ing nightmare and despite your concerns you're not in too deep yet.
Try looking at www.benzos.org which is very sanctimonious but is based on the Ashton withdrawal method. So if you're going to taper off it gives you charts and all sorts. Fact you've been taking diazepam is actually good as stays in your body longest so least likely to get seizures etc.
Re your doc, I agree - get a look at your records and change the tw**at if necessary. My doc is a senile old moron who said I needed more sun when i told him I was taking cocktail equivalent to more than 250mg val per day. In fact to keep their lucrative licences they have to keep up to date and the prevalence of benzo addiction and the slow withdrawal method was told to all of them in 2002. Don't be ashamed of it just stop it now.
Bye!
U SHUD GO 2 UR DOCTOR AS THEY WILL HELP. IF IT HELPS U ANY I HAV JUST DETOXED 4RM 30mg OF DIAZEPAM N IT WAZ HARD AS HELL BUT I WILL TALK N HELP U EVERYDAY IF U NEED ME. Kay
Its nice that you are offering help, but can you write it properly next time.
I'm not the one with the problem, I was just saying it was nice of you to offer.
P.S Please write things properly, it makes it a lot easier for us to read.
P.P.S How much harder is 'from' to write than '4rm'?