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Your first loves!
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Because of another topic i started thinking of my first love and wanted to share my experience with you all and find out about yours.
My first love was called Mark, but his real name was Marcus, he was the same age as me, and we went to school together,he didnt like me at first i dont think, but i fancied the arse of him from the first moment i saw him, we were in the same class as each other and when i asked him for his phone number he teased me by telling it me really fast so that id have to work it out!
HE was dead cheeky and had this f-ing gorgeous smile and these f-ing gorgeous blue eyes that made me melt inside.
We started going out together and we were joined at the hip, we'd stay at each others houses all weekend and were allowed to sleep other at eacht other houses, we'd spend all day together in school, we sat next to each other in nearl every lesson and got split up often off the teachers cos we owuld hold hands under the table and always be kissing each other,
w elost our virginitys to each other and i couldnt have wished to lose it too anyone else, because it was just right, when valentines day came round he bought me a chain with a love heart on it and a little diamond in the middle, we used to row at school and finish each other all the time and then five minutes later wed be sat in the corner of the yard crying and kissing again,
when it was parents evening our teachers suggested to our parents that they keep us apart a bit more cos we was just all over each other all the time,
my little nick name for him was smellybum, and no he didnt have a smelly bum i can remember how that came about,
it finished cos i met this other lad out of school and dumped mark for him, *sobs* then when i finished with him and wanted mark back he wouldnt have me, i cried for weeks and didnt go into school, for days,
he used to tease me by snogging me every now and then grrrr i hated it cos i well wanted ot get back with him,
i dont speak to him no more cos we both got expelled from school because of each other but id love to see him again and see what hes up to,
he was just so cute and i loved him with all my heart.
Eyes are the window to ones heart....Tears are the proof that you have one.
My first love was called Mark, but his real name was Marcus, he was the same age as me, and we went to school together,he didnt like me at first i dont think, but i fancied the arse of him from the first moment i saw him, we were in the same class as each other and when i asked him for his phone number he teased me by telling it me really fast so that id have to work it out!
HE was dead cheeky and had this f-ing gorgeous smile and these f-ing gorgeous blue eyes that made me melt inside.
We started going out together and we were joined at the hip, we'd stay at each others houses all weekend and were allowed to sleep other at eacht other houses, we'd spend all day together in school, we sat next to each other in nearl every lesson and got split up often off the teachers cos we owuld hold hands under the table and always be kissing each other,
w elost our virginitys to each other and i couldnt have wished to lose it too anyone else, because it was just right, when valentines day came round he bought me a chain with a love heart on it and a little diamond in the middle, we used to row at school and finish each other all the time and then five minutes later wed be sat in the corner of the yard crying and kissing again,
when it was parents evening our teachers suggested to our parents that they keep us apart a bit more cos we was just all over each other all the time,
my little nick name for him was smellybum, and no he didnt have a smelly bum i can remember how that came about,
it finished cos i met this other lad out of school and dumped mark for him, *sobs* then when i finished with him and wanted mark back he wouldnt have me, i cried for weeks and didnt go into school, for days,
he used to tease me by snogging me every now and then grrrr i hated it cos i well wanted ot get back with him,
i dont speak to him no more cos we both got expelled from school because of each other but id love to see him again and see what hes up to,
he was just so cute and i loved him with all my heart.
Eyes are the window to ones heart....Tears are the proof that you have one.
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I had a similar crush in high school but I didn't want to ask her out cause all her friends were loud and I didn't want them taking the piss out of me he he
In year 7 there was this girl who fancied me and her friends kept asking me out for her and I just thought they were teasing me and I kept saying no cause I was too shy. I later found out she did like me but it was too late <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/frown.gif">
Don't take life seriously because you can't come out of it alive
No I'm glad I didn't take her seriously because she became really horrible!!!! If I get another opportunity I'll probably scream and jump out the window in a Homer Simpson way <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/biggrin.gif">
Don't take life seriously because you can't come out of it alive
I've got a gf, yes, but there seems to be something missing there between us. Maybe it's her - i've seen her 3 times in as many weeks! Not good! oh well!
I was very close friends with a girl throughout 2nd,3rd and 4th grade, despite constant teasing from peers. But I never felt anything more than being a close friend to her - i never kissed except on the forehead once or twice.
So I guess I'm not really qualified to answer this post. I have no doubt that I will lose my virginity to my current gf, and i love her in some ways, but not in that deepest of true love ways. We'll see how it works out. Will keep you updated (some of you newa).
I didn't lose my mind, it was mine to give away.
i was sitting with the others in my squadron on the train on the way up and one girl came running back from the loo saying "theres this really fit irish guy back there and i think hes going to the same place as us!"
so obviously we all had to fake a trip to the loo to check this guy out, and everyone thought he was stunning.....except me. i mean he was ok but not really my type, he was blonde for starters!
all the other girls thought i was crazy and spent the rest of the journey checking him out.
anyway when we got there they were all talking to the girls from the other squadron about him. they all said the same - hes a womanizer and a cheat, stay away from him.
that evening we were doing an assault course and he came up to talk to me (god knows why when every other woman in the place was drooling over him and i wasn't) and we really hit it off, we just talked for hours. that night he walked me back to my accomodation and i decided to see what he was really like. i said a quick goodnight and went inside without even a peck on the lips, and as i looked back his face was quite a picture! i thought i'd seen the last of him and his interest in me was over, but the next day he acted like nothing had happened that he hadn't expected and was his normal self. this made me think he was worth it so that night i let him kiss me and it was the start of the most blissful week of my life! we were totally inseparable and totally in love, its the only time i've voluntarily said i love you in my life.
unfortunately that week ended with tears when we parted and i haven't seen him since. all i get is the odd phonecall or email. but i will always hold him close to my heart coz he is the only person i've loved (so far!)
sorry it was so long, and i hope i haven't bored you but i just had to tell that story; i feel so much better now!
luv and peace guys xxx
i'm not denying that women are stupid; God made them to match the men.
[This message has been edited by whizzygirl (edited 04-01-2001).]
Actually, i find these posts really fun to read - they remind of what I really, really have to look forward to.
I didn't lose my mind, it was mine to give away.
*|* Chica *|*
Stay Calm <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/mad.gif">
My first love was in the second year of primary school. I fell in love with a girl called Jenny and we became bf and gf. We were together everyday for 7 years and were inseperable. We never did anything more than snog, but it was nice to have someone.
Anyway, Whizzy girl. What cadets are you in? Air or Army? I am in the Air cadets, 2418 sherwood sqn, if that means anything to you?
anyway, well i think i may be going out with my first love right now. cos i knew him for a while before we were going out, and now we are it really does seem to be going really well. We have only been going out for a month, but we both admitted we liked each other, and even loved each other before hand. Last night he told me he was in love with me, and i was just wondering if anyone reckons there is a difference between loving someone, and being in love with them? i mean, i'm only 15, and not sure if i'm really in love with him, but would say that i loved him. hmm...maybe i'm just strange and its just a different way of saying the same thing. anyone else's opinion? and btw sorry if its a bit off topic, i could just start a new one if thats what you guys think!
Looks like we;ve built ourselves a bit of a reputation! oh well... damn! <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/tongue.gif">
I didn't lose my mind, it was mine to give away.
id never been out with anyone before. id met a few people on the internet and liked them a lot for AGES and hadnt said anything much, just hints and stuff. but i never met any of them (well there were only like 2 or 3, adn one DID live in america!!). so when i got to talking to one guy the summer of 99, i just thought, ah he seems nice, i have loads in common with him, we get on well... great, a new best friend! (had some friend troubles in school.. dont ask!) ... he was coming on holiday down here in the summer, and he decided to come down with a mate the month before. so he did. it was soooo weird, we got on well though after the weirdness and the scariness, and i went up there, and things kind of changed from friendship! and we went out for 16 months. some of the time we just couldnt imagine EVER being without each other, the distance was hard (180 miles) and expensive, but we got through it. we couldnt stop talking about each other at first, and missed each other if we didnt talk for a day, on the phone or net!! we lost our virginity to each other (eventually!) and im glad i did.
anyway we kept falling out and stuff mre and more frequently, and i guess we had just grown apart. so after much debate and fighting, and making up.. we decided to end it, it was hard when we were deciding, but it seemed the right thing to do. we just werent as much in love as we were, and it wasnt working out, and i felt tied down and suffocated and wanted to see other people (no one in particular). but we were gonna stay friends.
here comes the "grrr" bit!!
after 2 weeks of not going out, it wasnt going too well, he was being really childish and kept talking about nothign but the precise way i had said thigns in emails and just wouldnt shut up about it, and it just reinforced my idea that it was the right thing to do!! but a few days after xmas we talked on icq and he said there was somethig he had to tell me.. it made me so angry i rang him up and we talked for 6 hours!! well it was mainly me angry and crying and then upset and depressed and crying. he had decided he would go out with his "best friend" (other than me), after spending 16 months reassuring me he would NEVER go out with her and that a) he couldnt imagine going out with anyone else ever, and b) would never go out with someone anything less than a few months after breaking up. hmm yeah he kept those promises didnt he!!! the worst thign was, it all happened on what would have been our 17 month anniversary, and we took them quite seriously (ppl may laugh!!). so it was particularly gutting. i went through a strange few hours of saying i still loved him and begging him to go out with me and that it would. i had no idea why, i was happy with us being apart! guess its that old jealousy.. anyway he kept saying he didnt love me, and that was unimaginably hurtful considering he was going out with me 2 weeks before and he was the reluctant one to break up. and after listening to me cry for 6 hours, he then threw in "but i want us to still be friends..." needless to say thats the last time i spoke to him, apart from a few text messages, one still in my crazy "please love me!" stage, and the other 2 saying firstly that i didnt know what came over me and definitely DIDNT want him back, and wouldnt even if he changed his mind about the evil girl and said he DID still love me! and secondly in reply to his "i dont want it to be goodbye forever" msg.. that he had made his choice and i wasnt going to be his friend after he hurt me that much. i may regret it in years to come and wish i had stayed in contact with him. he just cant have it both ways, hurt me like that, seemingly on purpose, and also be my friend and have the good parts of that. he made his choice, and it wasnt me, and thats just tough. i can live without him.. its just weird at first coz im used to telling him everything and talking to him all thet ime and getting text messages. almost no point taking my phone to school anymore! im getting over it though.. i managed to have a conversation with a friend the other night about how it had probably made me a better person and i didnt regret it as there were (obviously) good times. i just should have listened to a good friends advice to end it back in september, i just didnt want to let go. might have stopped me getting so hurt. at least ill know for next time.
i bet you regret this post was ever brought up now!! if you had asked me in 6 months time it would have been shorter and not as emotional as it wouldnt have happened in the past 10 days. so i apologse to anyone who got bored or who didnt make it through the whole thing!!
It's better to regret things you've done than things you haven't.
Her name is Shauna and she is my penpal that I have nown for the last 11 years, We always had lots of fun in our letters. we didn't actually met up till the summer of '96 which is whre I fell in love.
We had such a pucker time togethe. the fun we had. This one day we went out to a theme park and saw so many things including seeing this little kid with an afro atleast a foot tall ( no word of a lie) even funnier still was in the back of his head he had a comb still stuck in, man we had so much fun that day and the other 13 we both had so many heart to hearts cries and laughs. 3 months later I was diagnosed with my illnss, and I became such a recluse and we lost contact for a little bit. When we got in contact again she'd met someone having had a couple of bad relationships, I ended up throwing myself into a relationship that was doomed, even tried to convince myself I was in love , and this girl knew it exploited me, and we still ended up getting engaged. I in the mean time kept talking with Shauna in the hope she'd talk me out of it, and we were so close to getting together but nothing blossomed.
I still to this day believe that she is my soulmate and would give everything I could to be with her, but it'll never happen. Because so much has passed between us, and the fact she is with someone I can't stop loving her I even try to convince myself that she's too good for me...
this post is now heading to nowhere, so I'll stop here.
The river is wide and oh so deep. I've been walking around in tears, No answers arethere to get. Cause between this world and eternity there is a face I hope to see
Me and my mate maria have just read that together Al, and we were both close to tears so i hate to think what its like for you.
(((((((((((((((AL)))))))))))))))))
but before i asked her out she got with a new gang of friends (bitches) and they kinda controlled her and i got lauged at by them all.
after leaving secondary school right after this i ended up on drugs for the entire holiday, managed to get off them beofre starting college but i think she still fancies me cos she sorta still smiles when the others are not looking.
I dont know what to do, this is still going on today.
Good Luck and dont come across too keen cos it might scare her.
You could be soppy and write her a letter! It doesn't have to be a gooey one, just a 'hi, what's up' sort of notey thing. Hope you find a way around this Harry <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
((((((Harry)))))
Don;t know why I'm encouraging you, you're my husband aren't you?!
*|* Chica *|*
Stay Calm <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/mad.gif">
It was just meant to be. Two years ago we met online and arranged to meet for real but i chickened out. Then a year and a half later, my mate from school came to my work with his mate, who was internet guy but i didnt know that, i only found that out after we started going.
it was the best 8 months of my life. fuck it.
I certainly would if something like that happened to me!
maybe it IS love at the time, it just changes so much you think it never was. although ive only had one boyfriend so i guess i dunno!
that sounds great rachael... just in the process of getting over my ex, once i get over the stage where i think i like anyone male who talks to me, let alone hugs me or whatever, i should be ok!!
It's better to regret things you've done than things you haven't.
Something happened like that with a friend of mine. I met a girl (Jen) from the net and we went to an Ice Hockey game. We were friends and would never have been any more. We went to a place called the cathedral Arches in Manchester where we had a few drinks & chatted to the players. I saw an old friend of mine from High School. Anyway Jen and Danny got on really well from the start. 2 years later they are engaged <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
So I'm responsible for there misery <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/biggrin.gif">
Don't take life seriously because you can't come out of it alive
We werent together very long but up untill tuesday there hadnt been one day i hadnt seen him whilst wew were together.
He is the most sweetest man i have ever met. I told him so many things that even my best mate doesnt know.
He was just 1 of those people you click with. I felt so comfortable around him and when he put his arms around me he made me feel so safe....<tear slides down cheek>
We broke up cos he had to leave to go back to uni on weds and because of the distance we didnt think itd work out.I just didnt want it to go sour. Id rather quit while i was ahead.
I dont think i have ever cried so much as i did on tuesday evening.
I went over to his that afternoon and we were just chatting away in his room and then he went all quiet. He asked me if i knew when he had to go back to uni. I said yea, the 8th, monday. He said ive gotta go back tomorrow.
It was like a slap in the face. I knew it was guna happen id just put it in the back of my mind. He kept askin me what i was thinking and i couldnt even answer him cos i knew id just burst into tears. (you know that feelin when u know u cant talk and even if u open ur moth ur guna cry) He said i know ur thinking bout whats guna happen now im going back.(which was true) W e disscused it and ccame to the conclusion it was nt fair on either of us cos i probably wouldnt see him for weeks on end and we are both so busy with skool work..........
I think the hardest thing was when he walked me home. As we got nearer and nearer to my house we started walking slower and slower.
He just started hugging me and he wouldnt let me go. And then i started crying. And he cupped my face and said this is the momoent ive been dreading since we started going out. And then he kissed me. And it wasnt just a kiss, it was a *kiss*, the sort which make everything better because nothing else matters appart from 2 in that moment together.
I didnt want to let go.
I dont think i will.
"I just want to feel safe in my own skin. I just want to be happy again." -Dido
That is so sad, i wish id never started this post now cos its making me dead emotional *sniffs* all these love storys, i wasnt made for all this sort of stuff!!!
Oh fuck it i admit im a big softy at heart and always will be, and guess what I LOVE IT!!
Anyone else got any first loves that make my eyes well up?
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Is this the one that you thought liked your sister, Rachael? If so, congratulations, babes!!!!!!! <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
"One can't complain. I have my friends. Someone spoke to me only yesterday."
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i'm not denying that women are stupid; God made them to match the men.
i was in america at the time (my mum married one of the natives) and in first grade(second yr infants).
his name was Travis Johnson. he gave me a wilted dandylion which i thought was only the best thing in the whole world and asked me to be his girl. <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> of course i said yes, id had a crush on him since he stuck up for me when Angela Maya said i peed myself-I DIDNT!!
anyways, he gave me his tickle-me-pink crayola crayon, and we used to hold hands and eskimo kiss and share lunches.
it ended when his mom said he wasnt allowed to have a girlfriend <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/frown.gif"> i cried my lil heart out.