Not sure why I’m posting

River

I just give up…don’t hit me with are you safe questions because I will just not answer bcs I’m sick of that question!

I stopped taking my meds, I cba with them anymore

Katie

Hey @River just checking in with how you're feeling today?

What has the last 24 hours been like for you? We're here if you want to share River - we're listening

River

@Katie feel crap and wishing I didn’t wake up this morning 😕

The last 24hr have been shit and my head and body don’t feel right, I feel wrong 🙁

Katie

This sounds really heavy @River but you're doing really well sharing. I'm wondering if you can explain a bit more about feeling "wrong". Are you in any pain or is it more of a general feeling?

River

@Katie general I think idk just feel cloudy and like I’m spectating another life

Katie

Do you think this cloudiness is related to your age-regressing @River ? Have you been able to speak to anyone about how you're feeling today?

River

@Katie im not sure and no I haven’t because I have no one to tell

I just cancelled the rest of my counselling sessions coz that woman can fuck off instead of calling me an attention seeker, if I’m an attention seeker then how come I do everything to not share how I feel. Everyone on the mix don’t know half the shit that is going on lately because I just share the light stuff and keep the heavy hidden but nope I’m just an attention seeker 🙃

Katie

Reaching out for support isn't attention seeking @River - it actually takes a lot of courage to be that open. How are you feeling now after she said that? Is it possible for you to switch counsellors I wonder?

Everyone on the mix don’t know half the shit that is going on lately because I just share the light stuff and keep the heavy hidden but nope I’m just an attention seeker

The choice is entirely up to you River but if you ever felt more comfortable to share the heavier stuff, we'll be right here with you to support you. Have you been able to speak about the heavier stuff with anyone before?

River

@Katie no I give up with counselling it’s not like I’ll get better either I’ll be dead before I recover.

I can’t share more it would be against guidelines plus not like anyone would care, nope I got no one

Katie

River wrote: »

@Katie no I give up with counselling it’s not like I’ll get better either I’ll be dead before I recover.

I can’t share more it would be against guidelines plus not like anyone would care, nope I got no one

We care about you @River and are here for you. How are you feeling today? If you feel comfortable sharing, are you still not taking your medication? If not, have you been able to speak to a medical professional about it?

River

@Katie im only taking 1 of my meds, no I haven’t