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unsure of what to do:/
shannonxg_
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i’m really unsure of what to do. i always felt so lucky knowing what i wanted to do with my life from a super young age but then that all went out the window when my dreams were ruined.
since i was 4 i wanted to be cabin crew, that was all i wanted. i done my school work experience in the airport for a week. when it got to picking my gcses i picked spanish, travel and tourism and hospitality in relation to cabin crew then ancient history as my ‘fun subject’ but only really because geography was in the same blocks as hospitality and spanish so yeah that’s the story behind my gcse options lol after completing my gcses i went to college and done a cabin crew and ground operations course which i absolutely loved however it was during lockdowns n all that so we missed quite a bit of the practical side out. i started my first job in the airport in one of the restaurants in october 2021 alongside college, i loved it there as it was a really good workplace and amazing colleagues and bonus points for being in the airport. i was due to start my training with easyjet as cabin crew in june 2022, it got to the medical assessment which i failed because of mental health and was told i would have to be mentally stable for a minimum of 6 months and that i would also require extra mental health assessments from their medical team and from a&e too. i was sad at the time as that was my dream and i have no hope of being mentally stable for 6 months lol but i continued working away in the little restaurant anyways. in april 2023 i then decided to leave and start my new job as a passenger service agent with the ground handling agent, at first i loved it then i soon learnt why everyone leaves, the station manager has her whole family employed so one rule for them and another for us, but overall it was just super unfair working conditions and unrealistic expectations - for example being left alone at jet2 check in from 4am-9:15am with 4 jet2 flights usually fully booked with 197 passengers onboard, that is a LOT of bags, usually over 500… that happened to me many times and usually there was no supervisor either as they were at the gates so it was a nightmare to try and get visa checks etc done. i did love working there for the job role and the other staff minus management - it was such a weird job like i got paid to stick stickers on bags, look at passports, scan boarding passes at the, pretend to be a dispatcher on the inbound flights occasionally, stand and watch people get off flights if i was the meeter n greeter haha it was such a fun job but i then decided to leave in may 2024 to complete youth start - what was meant to be an amazing programme that was actually shit, my finish date was 28th august 2024, they abandoned me 15th july 2024 with no explanation, i wasn’t offered the training they provide or the work placement and guaranteed interview - they won’t even give me my ict certificate which i need for college to prove i already have the qualification lol but i was so glad to have left the airport as you literally get some disease which makes it impossible to leave🤣so many people float about jobs in the airport because it really is the hardest place to leave haha you only get it if you work there though i never realised how serious people were about how hard it is to leave before i started working there and it took a LOT to escape it
i went back to college in september 2024, i am SO on the verge of dropping out again because it is a complete disaster to say the least. i hate going. im so stressed. exam access arrangements aren’t working out. yeah i just give up. i also started a youth work qualification too which i am absolutely LOVING!! i applied for a job as a young carers support worker and got offered it which i was really happy about, im in the process of the paperwork side of things now but its only a couple of nights per month so i was looking for something else too and i seen a job as an assistant youth worker which sounds really fun and the place it’s at has such a good reputation n everything but then i also seen jet2 are looking ground crew and i applied. i dont want to go back to the airport as it will be so hard to leave again, and its not what i want to do anymore BUT i would get to see everyone i used to work with as the ground handling agent checks in / boards / meets the jet2 flights then they have their own ground crew who basically just criticise the ground handling agent lol but i think i do want to go back to the airport? i dont even know. i have no clue what i want to do anymore☹️
i also have volunteered with oxfam in the past because i turned 16 during the first lockdown so had no mission of getting a paid job anywhere as even those with 72 years of experience and 26 degrees couldn’t get a basic job haha so thats why i started volunteering, to get me out of the house and to get experience - i volunteered there for 2 years! i started volunteering in a primary school too at the start of the year, its mad to think its nearly been a whole year!!! but i do really love it there too, and i also volunteer with shout which i wanna do forever as its such a rewarding thing and also so easy to fit into my life? like its 24/7 and i do it from my bed, perfect haha but yeah im just not even sure what i wanna do anymore idk.
this probably makes no sense and idk why im even writing this im just confused i guess idk lol
since i was 4 i wanted to be cabin crew, that was all i wanted. i done my school work experience in the airport for a week. when it got to picking my gcses i picked spanish, travel and tourism and hospitality in relation to cabin crew then ancient history as my ‘fun subject’ but only really because geography was in the same blocks as hospitality and spanish so yeah that’s the story behind my gcse options lol after completing my gcses i went to college and done a cabin crew and ground operations course which i absolutely loved however it was during lockdowns n all that so we missed quite a bit of the practical side out. i started my first job in the airport in one of the restaurants in october 2021 alongside college, i loved it there as it was a really good workplace and amazing colleagues and bonus points for being in the airport. i was due to start my training with easyjet as cabin crew in june 2022, it got to the medical assessment which i failed because of mental health and was told i would have to be mentally stable for a minimum of 6 months and that i would also require extra mental health assessments from their medical team and from a&e too. i was sad at the time as that was my dream and i have no hope of being mentally stable for 6 months lol but i continued working away in the little restaurant anyways. in april 2023 i then decided to leave and start my new job as a passenger service agent with the ground handling agent, at first i loved it then i soon learnt why everyone leaves, the station manager has her whole family employed so one rule for them and another for us, but overall it was just super unfair working conditions and unrealistic expectations - for example being left alone at jet2 check in from 4am-9:15am with 4 jet2 flights usually fully booked with 197 passengers onboard, that is a LOT of bags, usually over 500… that happened to me many times and usually there was no supervisor either as they were at the gates so it was a nightmare to try and get visa checks etc done. i did love working there for the job role and the other staff minus management - it was such a weird job like i got paid to stick stickers on bags, look at passports, scan boarding passes at the, pretend to be a dispatcher on the inbound flights occasionally, stand and watch people get off flights if i was the meeter n greeter haha it was such a fun job but i then decided to leave in may 2024 to complete youth start - what was meant to be an amazing programme that was actually shit, my finish date was 28th august 2024, they abandoned me 15th july 2024 with no explanation, i wasn’t offered the training they provide or the work placement and guaranteed interview - they won’t even give me my ict certificate which i need for college to prove i already have the qualification lol but i was so glad to have left the airport as you literally get some disease which makes it impossible to leave🤣so many people float about jobs in the airport because it really is the hardest place to leave haha you only get it if you work there though i never realised how serious people were about how hard it is to leave before i started working there and it took a LOT to escape it
i went back to college in september 2024, i am SO on the verge of dropping out again because it is a complete disaster to say the least. i hate going. im so stressed. exam access arrangements aren’t working out. yeah i just give up. i also started a youth work qualification too which i am absolutely LOVING!! i applied for a job as a young carers support worker and got offered it which i was really happy about, im in the process of the paperwork side of things now but its only a couple of nights per month so i was looking for something else too and i seen a job as an assistant youth worker which sounds really fun and the place it’s at has such a good reputation n everything but then i also seen jet2 are looking ground crew and i applied. i dont want to go back to the airport as it will be so hard to leave again, and its not what i want to do anymore BUT i would get to see everyone i used to work with as the ground handling agent checks in / boards / meets the jet2 flights then they have their own ground crew who basically just criticise the ground handling agent lol but i think i do want to go back to the airport? i dont even know. i have no clue what i want to do anymore☹️
i also have volunteered with oxfam in the past because i turned 16 during the first lockdown so had no mission of getting a paid job anywhere as even those with 72 years of experience and 26 degrees couldn’t get a basic job haha so thats why i started volunteering, to get me out of the house and to get experience - i volunteered there for 2 years! i started volunteering in a primary school too at the start of the year, its mad to think its nearly been a whole year!!! but i do really love it there too, and i also volunteer with shout which i wanna do forever as its such a rewarding thing and also so easy to fit into my life? like its 24/7 and i do it from my bed, perfect haha but yeah im just not even sure what i wanna do anymore idk.
this probably makes no sense and idk why im even writing this im just confused i guess idk lol
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