im going through a lot rn. with my mum. she is currently seriouslyunwell atm. her alcohol addiction got to much and she caused herself badly unwell. shes in hospital rn. on a breathinh machine. i blame myself. i do. bc my oldest sister said its my dault that she is in hospital. that my mh caused her to do that to herself. i cant sleep at night knowing that. it hurts me sm.
. i want mum to get better. but scared she might pass away frim this. im 18 years old. i cant lose my mum.
. yeh she hurt me before but. i need her. i cant live wifh my dad sll my life. hes so negative . he is really rude. i carry guilt. i cant stop blaking myself. it kills me. im struggling sm. i miss my mum. i feel awful for not seeing her. but bc im scared of seeing her with machines etc. i cant bring myself to it. i dont like the hospital she at. it has to many memories. from police etc. but i am so scared. i am restless. i dont knkw what to do with my life. or how to function. im going through so much rn. i am broken.
. i feel like my life has crushed to hell. when theres a update will post here. instead of threads.
. feel so bad rn. i cant sleep as im crying sm. it’s broken me.
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idk if this is in right place. sry
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