difficult night / episode of depression

spacedog

What if it's just a complete mental breakdown waiting to happen

spacedog

I'm going to try ask my mental health team if going into hospital can at least be considered

JustV

If you think hospital would help you @IainJammyboy, I think it's pretty brave to ask about it. Well done for knowing what you need and being willing to talk about it.

IainJammyboy wrote: »

Crisis team told me because I've waited this episode out before I can do it again - I can't do it again

Also this seems like questionable logic! Is that literally what they said?

spacedog

@JustV No chance in hell am I ever going to get the support I need - the mental health team also told me that my mood stabilizer is also an antidepressant?????????? Just makes me feel like I'm overreacting - or even I'm just so jealous of people in hospital or whatnot, they can at least get the support I can't access or anything. They said because I had a history of overdosing a couple times they were scared I'll do it again but still won't offer any help???? I can't even shower properly anymore, haven't showered in a few days since this started a week ago

spacedog

@JustV and yeah that exactly what my crisis team said word for word lmao I told them about that it's on and off and everything else but they always just fuck me over

spacedog

Does anyone feel like nothing makes sense but that there's a meaning behind everything???? Idk I can't explain it maybe I just am crazy

Sunshine12

IainJammyboy wrote: »

@JustV No chance in hell am I ever going to get the support I need - the mental health team also told me that my mood stabilizer is also an antidepressant?????????? Just makes me feel like I'm overreacting - or even I'm just so jealous of people in hospital or whatnot, they can at least get the support I can't access or anything. They said because I had a history of overdosing a couple times they were scared I'll do it again but still won't offer any help???? I can't even shower properly anymore, haven't showered in a few days since this started a week ago

Hey that sounds rlly frustrating if ur not being listened to, I would deffo keep putting pressure on them to help u because u deserve to receive the help u need!

spacedog

Talked to my crisis team today, took into consideration everything I said and these weird psychotic symptoms - we talked about hospital, but they said it's something that has been considered and can be in the future, but because of the environment it's like it's not the best fit we think right now especially as we don't understand what it is that's wrong

spacedog

I feel like myself again just today

spacedog

I don't know how I feel at all

Matthew_04

Hi @IainJammyboy
Just checking in to see how you are doing now?

spacedog

@Matthew_04 cheers - idk I'm still doing kinda bad, but it's like the more I think the worse it gets

spacedog

Feels like any past attempts or anything are completely invalidated cause I'm a guy

AnonymousToe

@IainJammyboy you’re still human though and all your struggles should be valid. I’m so sorry society makes guys feel like that, it’s so crap

spacedog

@AnonymousToe I don't want to live like this

AnonymousToe

Please keep going. You’ve been through so much, so all that can happen is for it to get better. I guess by reaching out on here you’re showing people that men need and deserve support, so you’re contributing to hopefully a change there.

ella

Hey @IainJammybo well done for seeking support from the community

Things seem tough right now, and I wanted to check in. Are you feeling safe today?

Remember, you're incredibly strong, and we're here for you every step of the way. There's no pressure to handle this alone. If things feel overwhelming, please reach out to any of us, or use these resources:

*Local urgent mental health helpline | Open 24/7 | Find details about your local service here.
*Crisis Messenger - Our crisis messenger text service provides free, 24/7 crisis support across the UK. If you’re aged 25 or under, you can text THEMIX to 85258.
*Papyrus - If you are having thoughts of suicide, you can contact HOPELINEUK for confidential support and practical advice. You can call them on 0800 068 4141 or text them on 07786209697.
*Samaritans are reachable by phone and email 24/7. Whatever you're going through, you can call them any time, from any phone on 116 123.

You're doing so well

spacedog

@ella yeah I'll be safe - seeing the crisis team tomorrow too so hopefully something will be done

spacedog

Why are hallucinations taken as such a big deal even if they're not immediately distressing?

spacedog

I'm terrified

spacedog

The more I talk about these hallucinations and people watching me the more it goes through my mind the more I convince myself it's real and I can't do anything

amy02

Hey @IainJammyboy just checking in with you as I can hear you're struggling and hope you're okay How did the crisis team go?