I hate being in hospital

Leila

It's my fault I'm here, I've made myself end up in here so I don't know why I'm upset. But I just want to go home, I'm really not doing well here, it brings up to many memories which are bad for me. I feel like people are making decisions for me, of course its a hospital, but I'm an adult, ( 18! ), like I know the reason why I've been told to stay in but it's not fair because its making me feel like guilty, that I'm here and I'm taking up someone else's space who needs this hospital bed, like it's just for mental health, and decision I chose to do caused me to be here, but I honestly feel like screaming because it's horrible, they haven't made a decision if I'm going home tomorrow which is also really frustrating, yes hospital are busy but like please just let me go home, but maybe its safer for me to stay here then be at home where I'm not safe.

Sorry for the long ass rant/post

Leila

awesomeminecraft6789

Leila wrote: »

It's my fault I'm here, I've made myself end up in here so I don't know why I'm upset. But I just want to go home, I'm really not doing well here, it brings up to many memories which are bad for me. I feel like people are making decisions for me, of course its a hospital, but I'm an adult, ( 18! ), like I know the reason why I've been told to stay in but it's not fair because its making me feel like guilty, that I'm here and I'm taking up someone else's space who needs this hospital bed, like it's just for mental health, and decision I chose to do caused me to be here, but I honestly feel like screaming because it's horrible, they haven't made a decision if I'm going home tomorrow which is also really frustrating, yes hospital are busy but like please just let me go home, but maybe its safer for me to stay here then be at home where I'm not safe.

Sorry for the long ass rant/post

Leila

Hi @Leila

Its ok to rant from time to time! I haven't gotten much to say but I really hope you come home tomorrow too but we'll just have to see sending hugs ❤️

Leila

awesomeminecraft6789 wrote: »

Leila wrote: »

It's my fault I'm here, I've made myself end up in here so I don't know why I'm upset. But I just want to go home, I'm really not doing well here, it brings up to many memories which are bad for me. I feel like people are making decisions for me, of course its a hospital, but I'm an adult, ( 18! ), like I know the reason why I've been told to stay in but it's not fair because its making me feel like guilty, that I'm here and I'm taking up someone else's space who needs this hospital bed, like it's just for mental health, and decision I chose to do caused me to be here, but I honestly feel like screaming because it's horrible, they haven't made a decision if I'm going home tomorrow which is also really frustrating, yes hospital are busy but like please just let me go home, but maybe its safer for me to stay here then be at home where I'm not safe.

Sorry for the long ass rant/post

Leila

Hi @Leila

Its ok to rant from time to time! I haven't gotten much to say but I really hope you come home tomorrow too but we'll just have to see sending hugs ❤️

Thank you, thanks for being here for me.

awesomeminecraft6789

Leila wrote: »

awesomeminecraft6789 wrote: »

Leila wrote: »

It's my fault I'm here, I've made myself end up in here so I don't know why I'm upset. But I just want to go home, I'm really not doing well here, it brings up to many memories which are bad for me. I feel like people are making decisions for me, of course its a hospital, but I'm an adult, ( 18! ), like I know the reason why I've been told to stay in but it's not fair because its making me feel like guilty, that I'm here and I'm taking up someone else's space who needs this hospital bed, like it's just for mental health, and decision I chose to do caused me to be here, but I honestly feel like screaming because it's horrible, they haven't made a decision if I'm going home tomorrow which is also really frustrating, yes hospital are busy but like please just let me go home, but maybe its safer for me to stay here then be at home where I'm not safe.

Sorry for the long ass rant/post

Leila

Hi @Leila

Its ok to rant from time to time! I haven't gotten much to say but I really hope you come home tomorrow too but we'll just have to see sending hugs ❤️

Thank you, thanks for being here for me.

Of course anytime 💯

Leila

awesomeminecraft6789 wrote: »

Leila wrote: »

awesomeminecraft6789 wrote: »

Leila wrote: »

It's my fault I'm here, I've made myself end up in here so I don't know why I'm upset. But I just want to go home, I'm really not doing well here, it brings up to many memories which are bad for me. I feel like people are making decisions for me, of course its a hospital, but I'm an adult, ( 18! ), like I know the reason why I've been told to stay in but it's not fair because its making me feel like guilty, that I'm here and I'm taking up someone else's space who needs this hospital bed, like it's just for mental health, and decision I chose to do caused me to be here, but I honestly feel like screaming because it's horrible, they haven't made a decision if I'm going home tomorrow which is also really frustrating, yes hospital are busy but like please just let me go home, but maybe its safer for me to stay here then be at home where I'm not safe.

Sorry for the long ass rant/post

Leila

Hi @Leila

Its ok to rant from time to time! I haven't gotten much to say but I really hope you come home tomorrow too but we'll just have to see sending hugs ❤️

Thank you, thanks for being here for me.

Of course anytime 💯

hugs! Take care! Remember everyone is here for you! <33

awesomeminecraft6789

Thanks and Same to you!

Leila

awesomeminecraft6789 wrote: »

Thanks and Same to you!

Thanks

awesomeminecraft6789

Your welcome

Leila

Yup

Leila

It's so shit tbh.

Leila

I feel awful

Leila

Literally cba

Dandelion

sending hugs @Leila do you want to talk about it?

Leila

Dandelion wrote: »

sending hugs @Leila do you want to talk about it?

Even though my mum is at home, she still says stuff to me, honestly feel like crap, I just want to get out but I'm literally stuck in a place my mental health is getting worse, I honestly got so many dark thoughts 😭

Leila

I just want to scream but I'm afraid of being pushed out

Dandelion

That sounds really tough, is there any way you can speak to your mum and tell her how you are feeling?

Leila

Dandelion wrote: »

That sounds really tough, is there any way you can speak to your mum and tell her how you are feeling?

All she does is shout at me and is rude

Leila

😭

awesomeminecraft6789

Sending hugs your way Leila ❤️

Leila

Thanks I guess. How are you

awesomeminecraft6789

I'm ok I guess

Leila

Okay. I'm hopefully home tomorrow or Friday yay

awesomeminecraft6789

Yay hopefully!

Leila

Everything hurts, cries.

awesomeminecraft6789

I'm sorry to hear that you deserve to be better

Leila

I dont feel like I deserve to feel okay, honestly.

awesomeminecraft6789

Honestly you do deserve to be ok

Leila

It's like I try to support people but they just throw it back in my face, it's like no one cares

awesomeminecraft6789

That's not true I care and so does everyone on here were always here for you but honestly your support hasn't gone unnoticed we may not say it directly to your but we do care about you

Leila

It's not anyone on here, I know you all care. It's in real life, including my friends, I try to support them but they just treat me like shit afterwards

awesomeminecraft6789

You really don't deserve that at all and if you're friends are doing that too they aren't real friends sorry to say but they aren't