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I just feel so low. I hate myself so much. My mind tells me that no one cares. That everyone hates me. That I’m not a good person to be around because I’m always bringing others down.
And I’ve got nowhere getting help and support. I’m being ignored and misunderstood. And I don’t really know how much more I can do this and hold on like this
And I’ve got nowhere getting help and support. I’m being ignored and misunderstood. And I don’t really know how much more I can do this and hold on like this
“Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
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i can’t imagine how anyone would hate you! You’re lovely. But I know feeling are not always true and I’m sorry you feel that way
it takes coruage to seek support and when it gets no where it really does feel like shit. Sometimes you have to be really persistant. like keep making appointments to see your gp to tell them how bad things are cause you’re worthy of their help!
Yeah it was really hard and took a long time for me to ask for support and I’ve just been getting absolutely nowhere. I even called Samaritans once when I was getting close to crisis point and they sounded like they could not wait to get me off the phone. He sounded like he couldn’t be bothered with me which then made me think even more that people don’t care. It’s now a space that I no longer have as I don’t want to call again
If you don't feel comfortable though remember The Mix have a crisis messenger too if you text THEMIX to 85258.
Sending you hugs - remember we are always here for you.
I’m really anxious today about nothing in particular
I have no positive ways of coping with this anymore
always here for you
Thank you so much for replying to me
I can relate to negative coping mechanisms sometimes it’s very hard to break that cycle but you can get through this
We really care about you on the mix, you are a very valued member of this community
It’s a bit of a long story with treatment. I first saw my GP a couple of months back and started taking medication, and was also referred for therapy. But the long and short of it is I had to come off the medication because of side effects, and the CMHT phoned me and assessed me for therapy and basically told me to come back after Covid. I tried to get another appointment with my GP after that but she wasn’t available, so a nurse called me and basically said I should exercise more and that sort of thing. All people involved have been kind enough, but the things they’ve said (especially ‘come back after Covid is over’) made me feel like I was totally wasting their time. And now I’m worried to speak to them again in case it happens again. The only person who really gets it is my GP, but at the moment after that call with the nurse a couple of weeks ago I can’t get rid of the feeling that I’m wasting people’s time.
I know how hard it is tho. I’ve been there myself. It does get easier though, once you have somebody on your side believing in you
It is so hard not to give up sometimes.
I am always around if you ever need to talk
Stay strong you can get through this
Just wanted to check in to see how you are feeling?
Thank you for checking up @*BananaMonkey*, I feel really really tired today. I just want this to stop really
How are things feeling for you today?
I mean like I want to stop feeling like this. I don’t get a break
Today is even harder. I just want to hide
Sorry to hear that today feels even harder for you, would you like to expand on what you are finding particularly difficult today?
What are you plans for the day? Is there anything that you could do to help to comfort, care for yourself or distract you?
There are always organisations available to listen if things get really tough and you need urgent support, even if you are aware of these I will pop them in the spoiler below incase they are needed!
- Crisis Messenger are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text 'THEMIX' to 85258 and talk to them about anything.
- Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123. They also have some online services here.
- Papyrus have a helpline that is open 9am – 10pm weekdays and 2pm – 10pm on weekends. You can call them on 0800 068 4141.
- If you have any concerns for your health or safety, call 999 or go to your nearest A&E.
For anyone reading this post it’s a possible trigger (idk how to do spoilers on my phone). Today everything just feels overwhelming. I’m just so sad and lost and feel so worthless. The urge to self harm is really really bad today.
And I don’t have any plans for today. I don’t have anything to distract myself though I wish I did.
I just wanted to drop in and say you are doing really well. Today sounds particularly difficult but asking the community for distractions is a really good thing to do when you're feeling like self-harming.
I'm sure the community will pitch in with their suggestions. While we're waiting though, here are some articles (a little old now, but super relevant and the services which can help at the bottom are up to date) about how to manage feelings of self-harm.
https://www.themix.org.uk/mental-health/self-harm/self-harm-coping-tips-and-distractions-5696.html
https://www.themix.org.uk/mental-health/self-harm/dealing-with-urges-to-self-harm-5698.html
I hope they help!
Stay Strong
“People who wade into discomfort and vulnerability and tell the truth about their stories are the real badasses.”
- Brene Brown
It sounds as though you've been experiencing a very difficult and scary low - how are you feeling at the moment? I'm so sorry that you've felt like you haven't been getting the support you need. Here at The Mix, we're 100% behind you, so keep reaching out and asking for help with this. We're listening and we're here to support you
You've said that the urge to self-harm is particularly bad today - where do you think that urge is coming from? Asking the community for distractions is a really good thing to do when you're feeling overwhelmed, and I'm sure there will be lots of helpful suggestions here. Depending on the feeling attached to the urge, there are lots of alternatives to self-harm. Sometimes physically letting all those negative emotions out i.e. tearing up a piece of paper, running, having a good shout or a cry, can give you some release but that doesn't always work for everyone.
If you're feeling scared or sad, you could try surrounding yourself with things you find comfortable; wrap a really fluffy blanket around yourself, play with a pet, light some nice smelling candles, massage your hands or feet, really anything that helps you feel good. Mind have some great suggestions here for all the ways you might be feeling.
I just want to reiterate what @Italia has said: you are doing really, really well. You're being so incredibly strong right now.
I hope this helps!
I just wanted to drop in some coping techniques that I use - as you know, I love my hot bubble baths, definitely recommend trying this.
Take a nice walk on the beach with your doggo!
Write a list of things that you enjoy or are thankful for - being in a positive mindset can really help boost your mood!
Listen to some music
Write a poem or song
You’re all so kind.
I just keep hiding away today. Struggling to face people offline