Cycles of feeling down.... and any final year/grad students around?
Does anyone else seem to get a yearly occurrence of feeling down, depressed/anxious? It doesn't always happen at the same time of year for me (I did consider SAD because often it's winter, but not always), but it feels like an endless cycle. I feel down, go to counselling until the sessions run out, feel better for a few months, and then it starts again - rinse and repeat. I don't know what to do. I'm so tired of the same old thought spirals and conversations with myself, and asking for counselling again would seem ridiculous (it would mean I'd been to counselling every single year of university). I feel like I'm just being melodramatic and really don't know where to turn any more, who to tell, how to help myself. It's not being helped by some ongoing physical health mysteries but that's a whole other story.
I kind of wish I could just sort out whatever underlying mental health/trauma issues I have once and for all, but the usual 7-week sessions don't usually allow for that. I'm not even sure what I'd talk about if I tried to go to counselling again. I really don't want to have to ask to be referred again anyway. It's not as bad as it could be, and I'd be taking up time that other students would benefit from more. Plus the issues I'm referring to are family-related things which I don't see how I could "solve" through therapy... do I just wait this cycle out? Try to tackle it myself? Accept these cycles are a part of my life?
If there's any final-year university students or recent graduates around anywhere, would also appreciate knowing that others have also hit this issue at this stage of university/careers and that I'm not alone. I feel "too old" to be using these boards (I know I'm within the age range but it's more that I associate these feelings with my teens), to be having these same issues over and over again. Why can I not learn to manage my own feelings by now? It's been a good 8 years of on-off depression and anxiety but nothing ever feels permanently fixed...
PS. I used to frequent these boards around 3 years ago (with a brief return a year ago during another one of these cycles triggered by illness)... so much has changed since then, but all the same, hello again all, and thank you for being such a nice community to return to.