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hey guys, just looking for a bit of advice … or someone to tell me what to do lol
basically im seeing my psychiatrist on Tuesday and he wants to talk about meds again... (he's really good and listens to my input about meds)
long story short hes been messing with my meds these past few months as I was on over the recommended max dose of one of my antidepressants and it wasn't having the desired effect so he put me on a new one and started weening me off the older one which was great, and these new meds are helping, but they helped more when I was on a combo of my new ones and old ones, now I don't know if I should mention that as since ive come off my older antidepressant Im losing weight (my older ones cause horrendous weight gain) and I don't know if its the disordered thinking or not but I like it, and im already on a cocktail of meds so don't really want to go back on to the older ones and add another med into the mix and gain weight again, just not sure what to do.
Whats better, being half happy and liking the way you look, or being fully happy and hating the way you look...
basically im seeing my psychiatrist on Tuesday and he wants to talk about meds again... (he's really good and listens to my input about meds)
long story short hes been messing with my meds these past few months as I was on over the recommended max dose of one of my antidepressants and it wasn't having the desired effect so he put me on a new one and started weening me off the older one which was great, and these new meds are helping, but they helped more when I was on a combo of my new ones and old ones, now I don't know if I should mention that as since ive come off my older antidepressant Im losing weight (my older ones cause horrendous weight gain) and I don't know if its the disordered thinking or not but I like it, and im already on a cocktail of meds so don't really want to go back on to the older ones and add another med into the mix and gain weight again, just not sure what to do.
Whats better, being half happy and liking the way you look, or being fully happy and hating the way you look...
(I should mention I do have an eating disorder (which is okay just now) but I am worried about a relapse as well if I continue to lose weight)
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How are you feeling about your appointment tomorrow?
Firstly I just wanted to say how positive it is that your psychiatrist is listening to you about your meds. I remember reading another post of yours where you talked about giving him a letter to talk about how you were feeling. How have things been since then?
It's understandable to be feeling unsure about what to do with your medication. It's really good that you're being honest with yourself about how you've been feeling about the new medication and also identifying your worries about relapsing if you continue to loose weight. How do you feel about sharing this with your psychiatrist?
Often when we're faced with difficult decisions something that can be really helpful is to have a think about what advice you'd give to a friend who is experiencing similar feelings. What would you say to them?
I hope your appointment goes okay tomorrow. Keep us updated with how you're feeling today and how it goes tomorrow.
you said ignore this so im just wondering if you still want people to ignore? Or did you still want peoples opinions? appercaite either chioce (just wanted to ask before relying since could of changed)
im worried if i tell him im scared of losing too much weight he's just going to put me back on it, the point in the first place was to put me on meds that cause weight gain so it would help (but i still relapsed on them) but now im a healthy weight they want to try meds that actually work if it was a friend I would probably tell them that their body doesn't matter, its their state of mind that's more important, but when it comes to taking my own advice im crap at that lol
I think im just going to basically tell him what I wrote in this post, the new meds are working but worked better with my old ones in the mix aswell, he may just put me on the max dose of the new meds, I just feel guilty for taking up their time and it was a long process of him getting approval for me getting these new meds cause of the cost so I just feel bad if they don't work as well as I hoped, theyre still throwing around the term 'treatment resistant' so I feel like this is my last shot at being happy, but if this is all that happy is, I don't think I can live like this for the rest of my life...
I think just as you said, being honest and just telling him what you've told us is the best way forward. That's what he is there for you - you have to do what is best for you and being honest about how you're feeling is definitely the way forward.
You should not feel guilty about taking up anyone's time - that what he is there for.
Let us know how you get on
How did your appointment go in the end?
It's really great you're getting some say in your care. Really well done again for sending him that letter.
Taking our own advice can be one of the biggest challenges! This is really great advice though. Just echoing what @Past User said, try not to feel guilty for taking up his time. You really deserve the best support and he's there to help you in the best way he can.
I hope your appointment went okay
my appointment was okay, could of been better though, *mini rant* he said theres nothing wrong with wanting to lose weight so in my head he's calling me fat now.. he also said I've to take prn before I get a nightmare/suicidal thoughts, like hows that meant to help, how the hell do I know when those things are gonna happen.
anyway he's kept me off the old meds just now and upped the new ones to the max dose and he's gonna add the old ones back in when I see him next month if I want, he did say another antidepressant in the same group as my new one works well with my old antidepressant … he hasn't had any experience with my new med as well its new but he thinks it could be the same reasoning ..
I know he's there to help, but when they keep throwing around the term treatment resistant it just feels like it's a waste of time, like what if nothing helps, they already think ill be under services for the rest of my life and that's a scary thought...
*in a spoiler cause mentions pills*
I want to start 2020 boff on a positive so have decided I need to get rid of my pill stash. But how do I do this? Like do I just bin them, flush them or dissolve them? I don't know the best way to do this. I would take them back for them to destroy but don't want them to think I haven't been taking my meds and stop prescribing them when I'm finally on a combination that works. I have so many but do take them normally it's just when I haven't taken them like
A - the pharmacy can't count and give me too many
B - 2 are prn but they give me enough to take every night?
C - when I've come home drunk and fallen asleep before taking them 🙈😂 (it happens)
Also need hugs as this is so hard as it is, I'm letting go of my saftey net, my crutch..
I'de flush them because I wouldnt want to take them back to a pharmacist either!