TW I just want to disappear

NatalieMTNatalieMT Posts: 94 Miniposter
edited May 16 in Health & Wellbeing
I don’t need to talk about how, what, when and why.

If I was actually going to I wouldn’t be posting here & wouldn’t be saying anything to anyone. 

That alone is frustrating, continuing with sadness, fear, paranoia, what my heart feels my mind thinks different, both conflicting, both fighting and it all leads me to the same question... why?!

Why did I survive?
Why am I here?
Why is everything over-facing and such a battle? 
Why do people expect you to be strong?
Why do people bother?
Why do I feel like I’m in a bottomless pit?

I feel like I was dead and empty inside when I was abused/rape and before that, I had to leave a part of me to car for my daughter, but the rest.. I don’t have the energy 
kathleen0172chubbydumplingLaineAifedavcr0ck

Comments

  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 4,125 Uber Poster
    Thank you for sharing how you feel Natalie, not always easy. I can hear you're struggling. :(I Dont see you like that. I see you as brave and very well self aware which does seem bit opposite of that. 

    How can we support you on here?
    Kindness begins from the understanding that we all struggle.
  • kathleen0172kathleen0172 Posts: 1,344 Fanatical Poster
    Hey Natalie,

    I just wanted to check in, and ask how you've been feeling since you posted this, if you'd like to talk about it?

    It must be really hard to feel this way :( We're all here for you.

    Sending love and hugs,
    Kathleen <3
  • Butterfly23Butterfly23 Posts: 99 Miniposter
    Sending lots of love your way Natalie, I hope you start to feel better soon. Always here if you need a friendly chat x
Sign In or Register to comment.