I've done a discussion kind of before but so confused right now..help please
So basically I'm on sertraline, I'm waiting for a community mental health referral
I self harm but if seems when I drink I go through a weird like it's not like I'm in control
Im currently 23, I've suffered with depression/anxiety and have had 3 lots of CBT - My mood is ridiculous, I can feel elated and on a hyped up bender, Then I could be so angry that I feel like I explode at the littlest of things, Then I could be severely depressed, or I feel unattached and literally don't care about anything
- I used to be bad with money never want to spend anything and now it's literally I need to spend the money cause it's in the bank. I worked out after bills (I still live with parents) I am left with 800 for myself but spend it til nothing
- I become fixated, I currently am with makeup, it's like I need to keep buying it even if I can't afford it. Or reading I could read 7 books in one week sometimes
- I am overweight, I honestly hate myself I want to change the majority about me
- My anxiety is mad, I can't go to the shops, pay for things or walk around or make phone calls by myself then other times I feel the best way to describe it is like I can do anything
- Sleeping is ridiculous, I sometimes sleep all the time then I have like 2/3 hours sleep a night or all the time
- My concentration can be really bad,I get bored easily of conversations and people. I zone out, sometimes watch tv and won’t remember anything about it
This is a basic summary of things, I'm scared and don't know what to expect. I've have CBT 3 times and never been referred to a community mental health team, what can I expect? I just need advice as my self harm is getting worse, I'm sorry:(x
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