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Insomnia - a sequel to Memories

Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 203 Trailblazer
edited September 2018 in Creative Corner
I spent hours, trying to create this poem, but couldn't form the right words. And then, during one sleepless night (Irony, right?)  I scrapped the whole of the previous, and created a whole new one, within an hour. Tonight's that night, and here it is.

I yearn for the steady ticking

Of the clock, now laid to rest.

I look for distraction in the silence

To dull the pain within my chest.


Funny, how something you once despised

Becomes something on which you come to rely

And when you’re finally rid of its tiresome tick

You’ll start to miss it.


I’m here again; staring at the fathomless dark.

Waiting for sunrise, listening for the clock.

For its frustrating din gave a chaotic calm

Without which the silence draws far.


But this time it doesn’t fade away.

The thoughts are here, and they’re here to stay

The urges, the strife, the god awful pain,

They persist, like a torrent of cold rain.


The little voice of doubt returns,

Preying on my defenceless mind.

“It’s all on you,” it says with a smile.

It’s slowly leading me, blind.


Then all abruptly comes to a stutter,

As the sun begins to shine.

For now I’m alive, though sleep deprived,

And the voice is sent away from my mind.


I’ll suffer for this, though it matters no more.

Because “one more day” is all I live for.

So I’ll shoulder the ache, I’ll go my way.


And if I’m lucky, by tomorrow…

I’ll still be alive for another day.


Comments

  • SienaSiena Posts: 15,681 Skive's The Limit
    Thats really well written and good. 

    Hope youre okay!
    “And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 203 Trailblazer
    @Shaunie Thank you :D 

    I'm alright, the issues still persist even now but at least now I've stopped trying. I just go to sleep when my body tells me I can't stay awake any more.
  • AoifeAoife Community Manager Posts: 3,228 Boards Guru
    You're so talented @LabraBell :) 
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 203 Trailblazer
    Thank you @Aife. But sadly it's the firsthand experience that makes it so deep.
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