Rubbish college course or no education forever?
So some may know I left college last year, I was not getting on with level 1 health and social care and I found it hard to keep doing something I really did not want to do.
I had high hopes in maybe trying a different level 1 this year but it seems that life had other plans and now every course is taken up but health and social care *shudders* I can't help but feel angry at myself that I'm stuck with sucky level 1s and that now I will never have a proper education or go to uni.
But then I feel angry at my parents for never letting me go to school because if I did then no matter how rubbish my GCSES turned out I could of got a level 2.
It's pointless mourning over the past because nothing can be changed now but I'm just in such turmoil and sorrow now that I will never have an education and I'll struggle getting a dead end job and when I do I'll be stuck in it.
It's not far that my family had to bring me down with them and ruin my life just because theirs is, I just I don't know I feel doomed and I don't want to be here
"So wake me up when it's all over, when I'm wiser and I'm older" ~ Avicii
"All I do is sit and think about you If I choose then I lose.
Distract my brain from the terrible news
It's not living if it's not with you" ~ The 1975
"What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille