Hi
@Past User
Welcome to the mix and well done for reaching out for support.
Sorry to read that your past has been so turbulent well done for sticking with it and continuing through the tough times.
I understand its hard when your friend is being abuse if to you its never easy to feel you have someone who can support you.
Depression and anxiety are quite challenging and tricky things to live with. Have any you been able to reach out for any support for this? There are some mental health teams in most areas.
Would you ever feel that you could talk to your boyfriend about anything? If you have anytime during the night we do run some support chats and support circles between 8pm-9:30pm if you want to come through to them
http://www.themix.org.uk/get-support/group-chat(bit more information about the chats)
Speak soon
Abi