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Suicidal thoughts - Help!
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I dont really know what to say, ive been having suicidal thoughts for months now and i dont know how to cope with them, i nee to talk to someone but i dont want to annoy anyone, i feel like i am just a pain and no one cares about me.
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We are here for you
Do you want to tell us more about whats been going on?
Thank you - i messaged you back x
Oh. Ive had no PM though
My PM's arent working so i will write it here....
Hello,
I am not okay, people hate me and i hate myself anyway, this boy at college has threatened me not to tell anyone and im really scared, i feel like everything that is shit is thrown my way and i dont feel i can cope for much longer.
When you say things are being thrown at you to make you feel worse. What things are they? Maybe chatting will hopefully help you see things clearer.
I am getting bullied, having suicidal thoughts,cant sleep due to nightmares, keep falling asleep in class, i am struggling and far behind on work, my mum may be losing her job.
Yes i know, im just really anxious about him knowing that ive told someone - ive just emailed my tutor about all thats been going on and got a reply straightaway, he seems really really concerned and has told me to come and see him first thing monday morning and he will let my maths teacher know that i wont be in lesson.
i hurt myself, now i feel so bad, i was doing so well, im just so messed up - i should just give up now and leave this world for someone who can do some good, im no good at this and never will be - i am so scared to tell my tutor tomorrow that im getting bullied, he knows anyway because i emailed him Friday evening to let him know that im getting bullied and he replied within 5 minutes basically saying that he is really concerned and this shouldn't be happening at all and is very unacceptable behavior and he told me to meet him in his office first thing on Monday and he will let my english teacher know that i wont be in class - but the boy said if i tell someone then things will get worse
Is it the thought of the bullying at college alone making you feel this way?It's strange tbh
Hope youfeel much better again soon You CAN do this x
I cant tell you.....well i dont want to tell you because i dont want to worry you
Just want to say well done for reaching out to your tutor and letting them know about what has been going on - it was really brave of you :yes: It's natural to worry about what might happen next but hopefully they will be able to come up with a support strategy.
It's okay if you don't want to say what else is making you feel this way; good shout on getting in touch with Samaritans.
We're here if you want to talk some more, let us know how you get on tomorrow *hug*
Well Done on ripping it up and considering calling The Samaritans though.
Thank you Raich x
My mum might be losing her job, im getting bullied, i feel like my best is never good enough, i cant let go of the past, i keep getting into stupid little arguments with my family, i cant sleep because get nightmares, ive started self harming again, my dad and brother gang up on me and make me more self conscious of my body, im falling behind with media coursework, i struggle to get out of bed, i struggle to find a purpose
Unfortunately, coursework struggles are hard but also completely and utterly common!Keep talking for all the support!
Your mum losing her job is stressful for all however she is in charge of this and it is not your responsibility.Just be there for her.
When I read this I felt overwhelmed, so it's not wonder you do too
Have you seen the Stay Alive App - this could be worth looking at for you as well : http://www.prevent-suicide.org.uk/stay_alive_suicide_prevention_mobile_phone_application.html
Do keep reaching out for support where you can and remember that you don't have to face all of this on your own. What do you think about going back to the GP to talk to them about what's going on?
Don't forget Hopeline as well, they are aimed specifically at young people: https://www.papyrus-uk.org/help-advice/about-hopelineuk
I wonder what sorts of things give you hope?
Sending hugs *hug*
Oh, i will check out these apps Jo, thank you - i feel like im not being treated seriously enough and i guess talking about this with my GP again may be worth it.
It's good to hear you're thinking about talking to the GP again, I'm sorry to hear you've not felt taken seriously. Have you managed to book an appointment?