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fat and ugly
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i hav a serious problem. i am in yr 11, a crucial year. i am 15. from yr 8/9 time to the end of yr 10 i suffered on and off from bulimia/ bulimia nervosa and anorexia (obviously not all at the same time). I am fat and i am ugly and i have though so for a long time. i am in a relationship where i am really happy, but i often feel uncomfortable with my bf seeing my body, i hate it. he has made jokes b4 about me havin a 'big bum'. he doesnt realise how badly him saying that has affected me. i cannot go on like i am. i wanna cry and i am cuttin back on my food. tonyt i made myself for the first tym in ages. it felt good, powerful. i feel guilty coz i promised my friends i never would again but i cant help it. i hate the way i look. i know i'll do it again, its an addiction, once u start summit ur addicted to again, u cant stop. i used to self harm all the tym. i havnt recently, only coz my boyfriend told me not to, but this no one can check on. i spend a lot of my time helpin other ppl with their problems and no one is there for me. i need sum1 to help me but i dunno where to turn. i dont wanna talk to kobey (my bf) coz he'l worry and he has his own problems. i feel really alone and i know that this is bad for me. sum1 please tell me how to sort my head out. im really really fed up and i cant screw myself up at this tym in my life.
p.s. please no1 tell koby. (he wont check this thread coz he doesnt care about health)
p.s. please no1 tell koby. (he wont check this thread coz he doesnt care about health)
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If my girlfriend kept that kind of thing from me I would feel upset and think that she couldn't trust me.
i would talk to my boyfriend but i know him. he really loves me and i really love him and he'd think it was his fault. :crazyeyes i need help
FruFru why didnt you tell me! you know im not happy with you doing this!
Im seriously worried about you now!
i love you as you are! your so gougeous and romantic and poetic and amzing! i love you for you atm i dont want you to be any thinner or fatter!
and ive said this before! if your fat im fuckig santa! cause im fatter then you!
i love you please stop! (K)
if im not fat then y the 'big arse jokes!!!' uve made em more than once. it isnt just u..... its me. its just not wise to joke with me about my weight. im havin a shit time ryt now and no one has a f*cking clue.
and i didnt no you where still having a problm but beleave me! your not fucking fat! your perfect i love you the way you are and i love your body the way it is!
(K) no more fat arse jokes!
love you!
sugar lips
i know. i love you koby. he's increadable. he makes me feel so much better. i really miss you koby. come visit me. come visit me. i miss you.
p.s. im still fat
whats your problem witgh you boyfriend then? anyhting i/we can assit you with?
NO YOUR FUCKING NOT!
im serious FruFru your not fat your beutifull!
i love you the way you are so at least stay the same for me? ?:|
love ya
luv ya al im of to the land of nod!
You just get bored easy sweetie - welcome to the club.
And be happy myself
etc.
Stay bored
Or bed hop until we get to the age where we're ready to settle down, hopefully with someone who doesn't bore us.
I'm just going to pm you hope thats ok.
Sure
Talk more to your b/f he obviously loves you the way you are.
I think that is where you will get the self confidence you need.
P.s no more txt talk ! Pleeeeease ?
That where I am at at the mo, its all about the chase, its like fishing you hang about for ages to get your catch, when you catch them you throw them back !!
I even do this now before we have hit the bedroom