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don't want to eat or drink
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I have to admit hate food and drink at the moment, more so I detest the thought of eating. I find this is part and parcel of my need to self harm.
I hate the sight, smell and thought of food. I hate the idea of eating, it disgusts me.
So far this month I have lost weight but I'm far from my ideal weight and I'm scared that when I get there I will gain again cause I'll have to eat again.
I'm a fat shit so the weight loss is good for me.
I'll go days without eating or drinking and I don't even have hunger pangs or feel thirsty during this time. After the third or fourth day I'll feel weak and or sore kidneys so I'll have a glass of water and maybe something to eat then.
The trouble I have is that I'd sometimes binge when I do have something to eat and end up in agony and putting weight on again.
I hate food, I hate myself and my body, I'm scared of putting the weight I've lost back on and I don't know where to go from here.
I hate the sight, smell and thought of food. I hate the idea of eating, it disgusts me.
So far this month I have lost weight but I'm far from my ideal weight and I'm scared that when I get there I will gain again cause I'll have to eat again.
I'm a fat shit so the weight loss is good for me.
I'll go days without eating or drinking and I don't even have hunger pangs or feel thirsty during this time. After the third or fourth day I'll feel weak and or sore kidneys so I'll have a glass of water and maybe something to eat then.
The trouble I have is that I'd sometimes binge when I do have something to eat and end up in agony and putting weight on again.
I hate food, I hate myself and my body, I'm scared of putting the weight I've lost back on and I don't know where to go from here.
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