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Help Needed - Depression.
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I was okay until December last year when I was accepted in to the Camp America programme and I was going to go to America. A camp had picked me and I was all good to go. I started feeling scared, lost, like after I finish my qualification (which I did in May) I would have nothing to come back to. In May I started a relationship with a girl, she lives in Texas though so it is long distance. I managed to get to America but once there the urge to cut more and more happened.
I have had issues with my weight too, so instead of cutting I pretended I was sick meaning I had bed rest and I didn?t need to eat. My usual weight is about 7 stone 3lbs but I had managed to drop to 6 stone 9lbs. The stress wasn?t good for me but I managed it the two months. I then had a month travelling and I spent that with my girlfriend. I felt safe at last. That whole month I travelled with her and things I felt good. I didn?t cut, I started eating more. She made me better.
Now I am back home. I am unemployed with all the right qualifications and I have applied for 125 jobs, that I can count, maybe more. I feel so low. I am scared to go out the house. I won?t socialise with anyone and the one person I need is 4500 miles away. I have tried talking to people on the phone but it doesn?t work. I am too scared and I don?t know what to say. I thought this email would help a bit better. Last night was the last thing for me. I was really bad and my girlfriend told me to get help. She needed me too. I can?t go to my GP, he?ll just label me depressed and give me pills I can?t swallow. I?ve never been able to swallow pills, ever. So it would be a complete waste of his time.
I really need advice on what to do. I don?t drive so getting places is difficult, far too scared when I get behind a wheel. And I still live with my parents and I don?t want them knowing.
I have had issues with my weight too, so instead of cutting I pretended I was sick meaning I had bed rest and I didn?t need to eat. My usual weight is about 7 stone 3lbs but I had managed to drop to 6 stone 9lbs. The stress wasn?t good for me but I managed it the two months. I then had a month travelling and I spent that with my girlfriend. I felt safe at last. That whole month I travelled with her and things I felt good. I didn?t cut, I started eating more. She made me better.
Now I am back home. I am unemployed with all the right qualifications and I have applied for 125 jobs, that I can count, maybe more. I feel so low. I am scared to go out the house. I won?t socialise with anyone and the one person I need is 4500 miles away. I have tried talking to people on the phone but it doesn?t work. I am too scared and I don?t know what to say. I thought this email would help a bit better. Last night was the last thing for me. I was really bad and my girlfriend told me to get help. She needed me too. I can?t go to my GP, he?ll just label me depressed and give me pills I can?t swallow. I?ve never been able to swallow pills, ever. So it would be a complete waste of his time.
I really need advice on what to do. I don?t drive so getting places is difficult, far too scared when I get behind a wheel. And I still live with my parents and I don?t want them knowing.
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Sorry you’re having such a hard time. It must be really tough having someone that you obviously feel so close to so far away.
It sounds like you’re doing all the right things to find a job. The economy’s rough at the moment, so try not to be too disheartened. Keep trying, and you’ll find something eventually. You could check out the Work and Study section of TheSite to see if there’s any other tips that would be useful. The National Careers Service can be really helpful too.
If you’d like advice on specific issues, such as cutting or eating problems, then sites such as Recover Your Life and b-eat have lots of information and support. They have online support, which it sounds like you might find easier than phones at the moment.
Childline (for under 19s) and Supportline (any age) both provide email support, and Childline have chats too. You could also join us in TheSite’s live online chats, we have a really nice, supportive community there.
If you do go to see your GP and you did decide that you wanted to try antidepressants (it is completely your choice), then there are some that are available in liquid form. Your GP might also be able to refer you to some kind of talking treatment, such as counselling, which sounds like it could be really helpful.
Do keep posting here and let us know how you’re doing.
I hope you get some support soon.
Danny