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I havent posted in months because I was speaking to a doctor from CAMHS. The doctor helped me talk about things but the first time i spoke to him alone i couldnt stop shaking and it was my entire body. I was 'discharged' about a month ago and a few days after i had a spider crawl up my back, combining this and when i think i see things in the dark, and that ive recently moved and saw a man staring out of his window into mine and waving at me i think i see things twice as much as i used to. Sometimes i see black dots running across my walls or bed or clothes and i instantly think its a spider, i know it happens to everyone but i see it so much and it genuinely scares me. Also, sometimes when i look at my window at night im positive i see someone else looking in , aswell as seeing shadows i think it has something to do with how im terrified of the dark, especially when i have to be in the dark or walk through a dark hallway. I really dont want to tell my mum because she would make me talk to a doctor again and when i did i just felt emotionless for days after, like i gave the doctor all my feelings when i told him about them.