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Really Low-self Esteem :(
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Hey! Well...I just recently got out of a really horrible relationship. I have a really terrible low self-esteem, not just becuase I'm out of a relationship. I was cheated on....4 times, and ditched at a party for one girl. I almost got beat up by her bf trying to pay someone $100 to beat me up. I got soo streesssed out that I had to quit my job. Every time I get into a relationship I get cheated on. EVERY SINGLE TIME. With the only exception of one guy, which he wasn't any good for me. He was a addict. Is it that I'm not pretty enough for the guys? I'm not slutty enough for them? I put so much trust in them that they think they won't get caught?
ugh. As a result from my last relationship, it really tore me apart. I really felt like I'm really ugly, and unwanted. All I do is think about life without me there. I just feel invisible at home and at school. I have no friends after the whole relationship fell apart. Everyone took anyone elses side but mine. No one but one person took my side. I look into the mirrior everyday and see nothing but an ugly girl who gets cheated on because she isn't good enough for any guy. Not even a good enough girlfriend to a guy who's never had a girlfriend, he still cheats on me.
So....what I'm asking is, how if I can , get over this low-self-esteem? Any Ideas? and suggestions? Please help me out! Winter is coming up and I don't think I can keep up this way for longer. Winter just makes things worse for me.
ugh. As a result from my last relationship, it really tore me apart. I really felt like I'm really ugly, and unwanted. All I do is think about life without me there. I just feel invisible at home and at school. I have no friends after the whole relationship fell apart. Everyone took anyone elses side but mine. No one but one person took my side. I look into the mirrior everyday and see nothing but an ugly girl who gets cheated on because she isn't good enough for any guy. Not even a good enough girlfriend to a guy who's never had a girlfriend, he still cheats on me.
So....what I'm asking is, how if I can , get over this low-self-esteem? Any Ideas? and suggestions? Please help me out! Winter is coming up and I don't think I can keep up this way for longer. Winter just makes things worse for me.
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I found that I am always going for girls who either have boyfriends, or are not up for relationships, or I know probably don't like me back and on the other hand: Every girl I could have, or I have been who approached me was brushed off. Why you might ask? I am not sure, but a friend told me that I might be a freedom loving guy, which I think I am, because mostly I quitted my relationships because I was feeling caged and cut in my liberties. So that's why I don't want to bond and look deliberately for partners who don't want to bond either. Which is a pathological behavior.
You would not be the first girl I know deliberately going for the guys who usually mean trouble, ignoring all the other sincere guys, who are interested in them.
Things are looking pretty bad for you right now, and I cannot blame you. I understand fully how you feel, it's a hard cycle to get out of and to start building self-esteem. I'm sorry to hear that you've had bad luck in your past relationships, they sound like they're absolute pricks.
It's natural for us to sometimes look in the mirror and feel ugly, unwanted and just generally down when somebody we love and trust betrays us so harshly. Do not think it's all your fault, some people just don't realise how good they have it, so try not to think too negative!
It's times like these I feel your own mind is your worst enemy. These events must play over and over like a record inside your head putting you on a further spiral downwards. I understand you probably feel the least bit motivated, but in order to start building yourself back up you gotta keep yourself busy. Fill up that schedule even if it's just going out and about for walks to see where your feet take you. If you're busy, you won't think, and if you don't think they can't put you down! (As bad anyways!)
Time's a great healer, and although it may hurt for a long time, and things may feel that they're going from bad to worse each day you wake up your heart will slowly mend little by little they will begin to affect you less each day.
If these 'friends' of yours didn't stick by you, they weren't really friends. You can always make new ones, especially in the most unexpected places. Friends are a benefit in these times of need, but all you really need is yourself and to take control. Days will look brighter in the near-by future.
As winter is coming, it's a perfect excuse to go out, buy a new coat, clothes, shoes etc! So treat yourself, you deserve it! I hope this helps you in the slightest, or atleasts puts a smile on your face. It'd be great to hear from you further if you want to talk some more.
Best regards!
Dan
Sorry to hear that you've been going through a rough time, I second the response Crayo gave and hope that it gets better for you soon