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got ripped off
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My mental health is getting worse, and lately I've been feeling really low, i bought some speed, or thats what i thought it was, just found out last night me and a mate took crushed up paracetamol, salt and the pill. I'm an alcoholic and have a psychiatrist who i go to for my ocd and anxiety. After finding out what we snorted i felt disgusted with myself, as i also gave my mate some. I had it in the drawer, planning on throwing it out, because i don't take speed and only bought it because i was drunk. So last week i got drunk at my place and my mate (also my neighbour) was drinking too. After knocking back a few i decided to get the speed out and after we had a line our noses felt like they were on fire. What i'm concerned about is what i'm doing to myself and what i done to my mate. Can the pill make guys infertile, its been going through my mind for the past few days and i'm really down, which is why i'm back on the booze, i couldn't live with myself if I've made my mate infertile, i don't plan on having kids because i can't look after myself let a lone a rugrat. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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How are you feeling this morning? It can be really hard when you're getting woken up in the middle of the night all the time - things start to play on your mind more and more and being tired in the daytime makes it seem harder to deal with your problems. Have a read of this question on TheSite from someone who's had the same problem - there are lots of useful ways in which you can get help rectifying the situation.
From this post and some of your previous ones it sounds as though you're beginning to realise that you have a problem with your drinking and drug use and to look for ways out of this. Good on you - recognising your problem is a huge step and means you can start taking the next steps towards cutting down. These can be very small to start with - it's really important to give yourself tangible things to do without overwhelming yourself by putting too much pressure on to stop altogether. Little lifestyle changes can make a big difference. Have you had a look at this article on how to cut down your drinking, or this one about drug use?
You say that your mate who you took the "speed" with recognises that you need to cut down on your drinking as well. I know you think you've lost that friendship as he's not been in touch since, but have you got in contact with him? Maybe you could try calling him - it may just be that he's busy and would be happy to chat, even help you cut down on the booze. However, have a think about whether you want to carry on hanging out with him if you always end up drinking or taking drugs together.
Finally, do keep posting - we're all here to help and support you and it can really help sometimes to just get things off your chest and shere your experiences with others who may have been through exactly the things you're going through now.
Take care *hug*