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i feel scared and scarred
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my last relationship was pretty rough. Its was abusive and fucked me up for quite a long time....i thought i'd got over it...and then a couple of months back i had a one night stand that wasn't meant to be a one night stand with a male friend who after declaring his love for me, told me 2 days later that he'd got back with his ex....this really shook me up and since then, apart from a bit of flirting, i've been really quite scared to do anything relationships wise...
And over the past couple of weeks, theres been a guy on my course who i thought was flirting with me, so i've been flirtatious back. But i asked a friend and she said that he was flirty with everyone and not just me.
I discussed this with my mum earlier as i was in a foul mood when she came over, and i said that this was part of it (as well as being tired, and hungry and a bit annoyed that i really tried hard and only got a 2:1 for my performance), and she said to play it cool, and if he is interested let him do the chasing...
and this is where i have the problem...
I've never had what i'd call a conventional relationship where girl meets boy, they take to each other, they date, they fall in love etc... I've been in madly passionate relationships which end up being very dysfunctional, reguardless of if thats taken 4 months or 2 years. I've only ever had one guy chase after me, and thats mainly because i thought he was stalking me at first. So, really, i don't know how to do this...
I'm really scared about getting too close and scaring him off, but equaly i'm worried about being too distant and making him think that i don't like him.
And plus, i feel quite scarred from the previous relationship. I am definatly over him, and have moved on and all that lot, but i still feel vunerable about letting someone into my heart and end up with them taking all they can get from me under the radar. Or ending up telling them about it and them to then feel like i'm very fragile and whatever...
sorry for the stupid length, but any advice would be good, cos anyone that knows me even remotely knows i have a really crappy track record when it comes to matters of the heart and i wouldn't mind having a chance at something a bit more normal than i'm used to.
And over the past couple of weeks, theres been a guy on my course who i thought was flirting with me, so i've been flirtatious back. But i asked a friend and she said that he was flirty with everyone and not just me.
I discussed this with my mum earlier as i was in a foul mood when she came over, and i said that this was part of it (as well as being tired, and hungry and a bit annoyed that i really tried hard and only got a 2:1 for my performance), and she said to play it cool, and if he is interested let him do the chasing...
and this is where i have the problem...
I've never had what i'd call a conventional relationship where girl meets boy, they take to each other, they date, they fall in love etc... I've been in madly passionate relationships which end up being very dysfunctional, reguardless of if thats taken 4 months or 2 years. I've only ever had one guy chase after me, and thats mainly because i thought he was stalking me at first. So, really, i don't know how to do this...
I'm really scared about getting too close and scaring him off, but equaly i'm worried about being too distant and making him think that i don't like him.
And plus, i feel quite scarred from the previous relationship. I am definatly over him, and have moved on and all that lot, but i still feel vunerable about letting someone into my heart and end up with them taking all they can get from me under the radar. Or ending up telling them about it and them to then feel like i'm very fragile and whatever...
sorry for the stupid length, but any advice would be good, cos anyone that knows me even remotely knows i have a really crappy track record when it comes to matters of the heart and i wouldn't mind having a chance at something a bit more normal than i'm used to.
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then you're playing it cool while he gets to know you better and it'll go on from there
I have lots of shit from the past that has caused me trouble when dealing with men. I often get kinda aggressive as well because I hate uncertainty as it makes me a little neurotic. I will try to act to eliminate that uncertainty but it tends to backfire because no matter how much guys moan they want us to, they don't really reward it when girls make the first move.
And when I talk about aggressive, I don't mean demanding and stuff like that, just suggesting we meet up or do something. To get things moving.
Then I end up spending way too long time on guys that basically aren't interested.
Wish I had some advice but I don't even know how to help myself. Good luck!
its quite easy playing it cool when it with someone that has a similar sense of humour...i.e. a sick one, we ended up drawing stuff in each other notebooks in a lecture...
i hope it goes somewhere, he's really lovely, and i've had so many male friends, that i've occationally messed around with, for it to go no further...
today we (as in most of my class) went and got mildly pissed at lunchtime. the guy i like was there, and was talking about this band he's going to see tomorrow night and invited me along, but its in croydon so he also invited me to stay the night plus when we were just getting out equipment for band practice he gave me a kiss on the cheak....
i'm not being nieve to think that he must want to be more than friends now, am i?
still a bit worried but we'll see how it goes
he's just told me how he feels, and its a good 'un
just been leeping around my room and just disturbed my next door neighbour from her draping work....but i feel so fucking good!
i got it wrong
his mate was fucking around and said it as a joke...
i'm pretty cut up about it. but he seems to be ok...
I don't know if it will go anywhere which is such a shame, because just being around him makes me feel great.