Wanting to report sexual abuse but my family are racist
I don't think they would be empathetic about the situation at all and would be more focused on the person not being white. And I'm sure they would even make comments like - it's what to expect into going into a relastionship with someone who isn't white. - They do say sick comments like that and are really racist.
My family are pretty constant with what they say about others. And I cant help but think, their thoughts have rubbed onto me. And then I start thinking maybe I dont like speaking about it because i am ashamed myself for the relastionshsip. I do question if I am racist myself and that is something that is stopping me reporting it aswell. But then I think maybe I am not racist cause I was in the relastionship in the first place but then I get negative thoughts that maybe after the relastionship & what happened that, am racist. People who are in the same race as him - I'm not too keen on and I don't know if because reminds me of him or cause I am racist. But I feel guilty for thinking like that. And think is wrong?
I hope this didn't offend anyone.
I don't think I have worded this as well as I could, at all, or explained well. but I just feel pretty stuck