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addiction to self harm? please help
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Ive started to relise more and more now how i am acctually addicted to watching my self bleed! its stared to scare me i jsut cut my self and sit and watch the blood run! no one ever sees or anyhting its not attention bt its started to scare me! i did it today i sat there adn watched this blood jsut run down my arm!
im now seriously scared!
anyone ever felt like this?
im now seriously scared!
anyone ever felt like this?
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its just serioulsy i cant stop my self any mroe i sat in coffe rep doing it i was watching it! it felt nice to see the blood rush and to know that less of me was there to be damaged by something else!
fuck sake i balme al this on my stupid rents BASTARDS!
Have achat with you doc & see what they suggest. Believe me, its more common than people think so they will have probably dealt with this before.
Good luck.
http://www.thesite.org/info/health/other_mental_health/self_harm.html
hmmmm! a flat in basingstoke, cool! u surgested htat the other day it sounds so fun but do you do know that it will cost way over 20 thousan! my bro looked into it! its fuckign expensive! but hay if my rents hate me that much! LOL!
"now you do what they told ya"
YUCK my feet smell!
yeah back on subject, karla ive read that sheet, but still i cant acctualy justify a lot of waht i do any more! because im always depresed, my rents are never outa my head im alwayz lookiing around to make sure there not there! even if i know there not! the only time last year i was acctaully fully happy was when the two of em buggerd of to Dubia! i had my gran to contend with mut hay shes old! LOL!
i dunno what to do, ive tried to tell FruFru about my prblems but most of it is petty and jstu stupid! thats why i ca me here for help! beacuse i have no real reason i jstu really need some advice! is there any way any one else knows!?
you answered ur own question sweetheart. 'its become a game.' you hurt urself because u enjoy it. it doesnt make u feel better, its a hobby. ive said b4 that ppl do it for different reasons. u do it because its the one game that no one can take away. ur parents can stop u going out, havin fun, talking to ur friends, playing on ur ocmputer... but they cant stop u doing that because its ur game. and u like it. u like to bleed and u like even more to scar. im not judging u... i just think i understand y u do it. and another things babes. ur problems ARE NOT petty. they r so important to me. u mean the world to me and i love u and i dont care how small ur probs are or how depressed i may seem, i am always always here for u.
At one time I had gone 9 1/2 months without cutting then I cut again because I was going through something that I can not really explain, but I had cut just that once and now it has been 4 months and 5 days since the last time I have cut myself and I am trying my best to make it at least a year this time.
I totally understand what everyone has or is going through because I have been there and I still battle, every single day, to fight off the urges of wanting to cut again, but I have better coping skillls and am able to use those coping skills to better fight off the urge of cutting and to be able to fight off everything that I might go through from day to day.
I don't mean to put anyone down or to upset anyone, but there is always hope out there for everyone and if anyone would ever want to talk with me about my experience/s with self harming, please feel free to PM me.
MySuffice21
I don't know what problems you have at home but whether you use self-harming as a release or not you really need to stop doing it. It might fascinate you but it's clearly not helping. Talking through your problems might help and as somebody pointed out, you see this as a game. One which nobody can take away from you. What's the final object of this game though? Is it pain? Is it scars? Is it death? Whatever it is, all of the above are almost a certainty.
I want to help you but the only way I can do so is to offer my suport and friendship. Feel free to PM me if you ever want a shoulder to cry on or just someone impartial to talk to.