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TW- mentions of ED
Animalloverb
Posts: 714 Part of The Mix Family
For a long while I have struggled with eating. I was diagnosed with one disorder then diagnosed with another. I struggle with eating way too much (I am not naming the exact disorder as it makes me uncomfortable)
I eat to feel comfort, to feel something other then the pain in my mind, its hard and I want to stop as after I eat it makes me feel extreme guilt. I put on a front as I don't want my son to pick up on my issues.
Before Being diagnosed with this current ED, I was diagnosed with a different one, I didn't eat for ages It was bad but it gave me control ( well what I thought was control) I recovered after a long time from that and then recently I was diagnosed with my original ED. Which is the one I mentioned first, I wish I could stop, I want to be healthy but it's like everything is making me feel mental pain to the point where eating takes it away but when I stop I feel guilt it's horrible.
Comments
Hey @Animalloverb Thanks for sharing this with us tonight, I know that can be so overwhelming and such a difficult thing to do. We're here with you while you manage this.
I'm hearing that you've been struggling with eating being difficult to stop as it brings you so much comfort in doing so. That's understandable, and it makes sense you'd feel a need to put on a front to help your son.
It also sounds like being diagnosed with an ED and then at a later time being re-diagnosed with another one is something that added stress to your situation, on top of everything else. I can't imagine how confusing that must have been. How did you feel when you got the first and second diagnoses for your ED? Do you feel that your current diagnosis is correct compared to the first one? And I'm wondering how you have been managing this diagnosis to help you cope with everything?
As always, don't feel you have to reply to these questions, they're just some questions I have right now but you're in charge here and free to share as little or as much as you feel comfortable with.
@Callum
I do feel my current diagnosis is correct. To be fair I never wanted a diagnosis of an ED, I knew something wasn't right but felt I was coping, I felt that numb feeling and it made me feel good. A dietitian spoke to me as I have a lot of issues with eating anyway because of allergies so I was seeing a dietitian for that reason, but they diagnosed me with the first then now my current ED. They admit the first diagnosis was a mistake which is why they diagnosed me with this current one, I just don't want the diagnosis because no support has even been offered, it's just like they have put another label on file.
The things with my eating help me feel that extra numb feeling and I personally don't want that to change.
Recently I was diagnosed with dyslexia
Which to me is weird because I am a really big reader
I was also diagnosed with cancer(ostracoma bone cancer)
My doctor said to keep doing what I love ie running, netball, volleyball, reading,walking the dog etc
I am finding sleeping really hard but it’s only stage 1
No chemotherapy involved just a few bone marrow transplants