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thoughts after depressive ssri crashout

PetiteQuarkPetiteQuark Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
edited January 12 in Health & Wellbeing
So after all of that, i just apologised to everyone and honestly i dont care if someone thinks im faking everything because honestly the person who accused me of faking also accuses alot of other people too, and honestly it just wouldn't make sense if i was faking everything, and now i think of it i think it was silly for me to be so upset about it because only my gp and therapist would need to know what i feel and only they would be able to tell and i dont care if anyone accuses me of having NPD because that would just be an armchair diagnosis, if my gp or therapist say i dont then i dont and my gp knows about what ive been through since theyve literally seen me during panic attacks and stuff so yeah i just think that was stupid of me to even care a little bit even too i guess.
I still think its a pretty serious thing to accuse anyone of having any personality disorder or invalidate people regardless especially if you dont work as a therapist or a psychologist still.
And not even just that I'm not even the first person to be accused of personality disorders by this guy too, like he also accused other people he knew, some of my (former) classmates, and also I only spoke to that guy for like a year when I did my y1 alevels which didnt work out since i didnt really like the subject and also i was kinda depressed too back then (literally diagnosed with it)

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  • VerityVerity Community Manager Posts: 170 Helping Hand
    @PetiteQuark It makes complete sense that you care about this, being accused of faking something so serious would affect anyone, your feelings are completely valid and as you said, what matters if you know how you feel. Can I ask how you are actually feeling now? do you feel calmer or more shut down or something else entirely? Would you say you have others around you that hear and support you? We’re here to help.

    It sounds like you’ve done a lot of self reflection after this situation with the armchair diagnosis and invalidation, and you are grounding yourself in what you know to be true and especially trusting your therapist and GP over these opinions, that takes a lot of strength.
  • PetiteQuarkPetiteQuark Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    edited January 13
    Verity wrote: »
    @PetiteQuark It makes complete sense that you care about this, being accused of faking something so serious would affect anyone, your feelings are completely valid and as you said, what matters if you know how you feel. Can I ask how you are actually feeling now? do you feel calmer or more shut down or something else entirely? Would you say you have others around you that hear and support you? We’re here to help.

    It sounds like you’ve done a lot of self reflection after this situation with the armchair diagnosis and invalidation, and you are grounding yourself in what you know to be true and especially trusting your therapist and GP over these opinions, that takes a lot of strength.

    Honestly i have others around me but i feel kind of guilty because i probably irritated them too but i have others who are around me yes, like i do have other friends who ive known for years and my relatives too, so thats the other thing if someone accuses me of having whatever disorder i literally have people who knew me for years if not pretty much my entire life. I can't really tell if im shut down or if im calmer but to be honest i really don't care, they're not my therapist or gp or whatever they dont have a psych degree or anything like that and i was just afraid that i would get 30+ messages with cuss words and accusations and stuff and im just scared if they do other things too and i do feel really guilty because i basically annoyed alot of people with my depressive crazy crashout tantrum thing
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  • PetiteQuarkPetiteQuark Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    And it just irritated me because one of the reasons i didn't like fluoxetine was because it made me too hyper and panicky.
  • VerityVerity Community Manager Posts: 170 Helping Hand
    That's the last thing you need and deserve, I can imagine it will only make things harder for you. Thanks for sharing your experiencre @PetiteQuark This moment you had where you reacted from feelingn unstable does not define you and I'm sure most people would understand this, when you say you are scared they might do 'other things' what do you mean by that?
  • PetiteQuarkPetiteQuark Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    edited 10:26AM
    Verity wrote: »
    That's the last thing you need and deserve, I can imagine it will only make things harder for you. Thanks for sharing your experiencre @PetiteQuark This moment you had where you reacted from feelingn unstable does not define you and I'm sure most people would understand this, when you say you are scared they might do 'other things' what do you mean by that?

    well, they just did stuff that (in the past) i found kind of weird and dangerous and stuff and maybe a little unhinged too, i couldn't really tell if it was serious or not, and just the amount of swearing, they also asked if they could have antidepressants to get high off of (which doesn't even make sense antidepressants dont get you high and they take weeks to even work, even i knew this way before i started taking them) but even then I cannot tell if they were serious or not about that, and im not even the first person they accused of being a 'narcissist' or whatever and i found it weird as heck that they wanted to speak to people i knew that they didn't.
    Also just some of the stuff they were into was a bit weird too so i am a bit scared i wont lie.

    Like at one point there was this friend or idrk friend of a friend he used to talk about positively, i never met them or knew about them so i didn't question it and then at some point they just switched up on that person and called them mean things and stuff.

    I still dont get how one could 'fake' a panic attack when panic attacks have physical symptoms and i literally went to the doctors during one too so yeah idrk how can anyone fake it. And panic /anxiety attacks and autism kind of run in my family so now that i think of it its probably genetic and im guessing it can be fixed with therapy and maybe time because ssris take a while.
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