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forcing myself not to sleep (TW - self harm)

toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
in Health & Wellbeing
its almost 2am and i feel like im forcing myself not to sleep because i deserve to be punished for some reason. if i cant self harm physically then i might as well do it mentally by not sleeping.

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  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    im forcing myself not to sleep again because i simply cant this time, im glad i dont have college tomorrow because otherwise id be screwed.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    i feel like pulling an all nighter again but ill try to sleep tonight because i dont want to be miserable and tired in the morning so ill try to sleep. ill update you all if i dont manage to fall asleep later on.
  • NemuritaiNemuritai Posts: 410 Listening Ear
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    i feel like pulling an all nighter again but ill try to sleep tonight because i dont want to be miserable and tired in the morning so ill try to sleep. ill update you all if i dont manage to fall asleep later on.

    @toffuna101 I'm going to try and sleep in a little bit so I won't be here, but I wish you a super peaceful sleep if you manage to get any, and good dreams <3
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    Nemuritai wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    i feel like pulling an all nighter again but ill try to sleep tonight because i dont want to be miserable and tired in the morning so ill try to sleep. ill update you all if i dont manage to fall asleep later on.

    @toffuna101 I'm going to try and sleep in a little bit so I won't be here, but I wish you a super peaceful sleep if you manage to get any, and good dreams <3

    thank you <3
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    ok i think im pulling an all nighter tonight. or maybe ill just go to bed really late idk.
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 2,237 Boards Champion
    Hopefully you managed to get some rest and are feeling okay this morning <3
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    sinead276 wrote: »
    Hopefully you managed to get some rest and are feeling okay this morning <3

    thank you, yeah i did manage to get some rest in the end.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    might pull an all nighter
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 2,972 Boards Guru
    Hi @toffuna101 ., thank you for this thread. You're doing so well to talk about this. I'm hearing that last night you were experiencing an urge to 'punish' yourself, is that right? And because SHing doesn't feel feasible right now, forcing yourself to stay awake when you were tired felt like another method? I hear you, and really appreciate your trust in sharing this.

    How are you feeling this morning? And I wonder if you'd feel comfortable sharing some more about that urge to punish yourself - where do you feel that's coming from at the moment?

    We're here with you to listen, and you're so deserving of time and compassion around this.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    im ok, im not sure
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    i successfully pulled an all nighter today. i dont know what to feel about that to be honest.
  • VerityVerity Community Manager Posts: 8 Confirmed not a robot
    Hey @toffuna101 , you must be feeling drained, try to get some rest if you can. Did you manage to get better sleep last night?
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,741 Community Veteran
    Verity wrote: »
    Hey @toffuna101 , you must be feeling drained, try to get some rest if you can. Did you manage to get better sleep last night?

    yes, i kinda had to as i had college the next morning.
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