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Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? w/c 27.10.25

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  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    I am so sorry, but I am too tired for this. I am barely keeping myself awake. Just try your best to distract yourself and keep yourself safe. If it comes to it, and I pray to God it won't, call 999.

    its fine, you shouldnt have to keep yourself awake just to keep me safe. ill be ok.
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 9,775 Supreme Poster
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.

    @toffuna101 good luck with it. I'll be here for after the call friend.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
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    eylah wrote: »
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    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.

    @toffuna101 good luck with it. I'll be here for after the call friend.

    ok. i dont know why but i just hear ringing. i thought samaritans would get you through to a volunteer quickly.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
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    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.

    @toffuna101 good luck with it. I'll be here for after the call friend.

    ok. i dont know why but i just hear ringing. i thought samaritans would get you through to a volunteer quickly.

    @toffuna101 they should do. It might just be an extremely busy day for them or something.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
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    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.

    @toffuna101 good luck with it. I'll be here for after the call friend.

    ok. i dont know why but i just hear ringing. i thought samaritans would get you through to a volunteer quickly.

    @toffuna101 they should do. It might just be an extremely busy day for them or something.

    yeah maybe.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,554 Boards Guru
    edited November 2
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    Nathan wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
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    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.

    @toffuna101 good luck with it. I'll be here for after the call friend.

    ok. i dont know why but i just hear ringing. i thought samaritans would get you through to a volunteer quickly.

    @toffuna101 they should do. It might just be an extremely busy day for them or something.

    yeah maybe.

    @toffuna101 so i've researched a few other options, and here's a few. Papyrus can be called on 0800 068 4141. And i also think 111 have a mental health option, where they connect you to mental health support. So if any of those are taking too long, try these.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Nathan wrote: »
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    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    i am
    eylah wrote: »
    toffuna101 wrote: »
    anyone still awake?

    im awake. you ok?

    ok
    TW: self harm
    i thought the urges were gone but my self harm urges are coming back. i was gonna go downstairs and find a tool for me to self harm with but my mum caught me.

    sounds like you may need help beyond what we can offer you. maybe speaking with your mum? if not can you call a helpline? last resort being 999. or going to your local hospital for support bc it sounds like you may need urgent help rn.

    ill text shout. i dont wanna go to A&E unless if i absolutely have to because 1) i wont be able to sleep because of the noise, 2) theyll just discharge me like last time and 3) its boring but itll keep me safe i guess.

    pls txt shout or try calling childline. ( if you’re in the age bracket ). im sry if i go quiet im getting rly tired but pls reach out! you matter.

    i just texted shout and now im in the queue. i dont know how long itll be but hopefully it wont be too long. im 17 so im in the age bracket for childline, ill call them if shout takes too long to answer.

    @toffuna101 your doing an incredibly brave thing by reaching out. I'm proud of you. I'm gonna keep this tab open, so if you want to talk some more, i'm here. Childline sounds like a great idea if shout is no good, and if all else fails, samaritans are worth ringing.

    And like so_very_tired said, if needs be, even though A&E is boring, and very little gets done based on your past experiences there, they can keep you safe for the night.

    i had a gut feeling that shout will take too long therefore im just calling childline and im in the queue. id like to talk some more.

    @toffuna101 yeah, Saturday nights i assume they tend to be understaffed a bit, or at the very least have a surge of activity. Childline is a very smart move as it deals with far fewer people overall than shout. And yeah, as i say, whatever happens throughout the night, I'm here toffuna. You aren't alone. Keep trying to get through mate to them.

    thank you, yeah since childline is for under 19s whilst shout is for everyone really. ive been waiting for 15 minutes to get through to childline which is odd. im gonna wait 15 more minutes before hanging up and calling samaritans.

    @toffuna101 yeah, saturdays i assume tend to be one of the busiest days of the week, which will be why it's a long waiting time, even for them. Just keep at it, and eventually you'll get through. In the meanwhile, do you want to talk a bit more about how you're feeling if you feel comfortable? Or anything else you want to talk about?

    i just feel desperate honestly. i had a short chat with childline but i feel that it was too short, they kind of just forced me to take a break from talking with them.

    @toffuna101 that sounds dreadful. Childline should have kept you on the line talking and offering support. They must just have been a bit overwhelmed and short staffed. The fault isn't on you for that, it's on them. It might be worth ringing Samaritans then instead. I'll post the link here for all there info: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/

    maybe, thanks for the link. i feel like calling them will be quicker and easier so i might as well try it. ill tell you what happens afterwards.

    @toffuna101 good luck with it. I'll be here for after the call friend.

    ok. i dont know why but i just hear ringing. i thought samaritans would get you through to a volunteer quickly.

    @toffuna101 they should do. It might just be an extremely busy day for them or something.

    yeah maybe.

    @toffuna101 so i've researched a few other options, and here's a few. Papyrus can be called on 0800 068 4141. And i also think 111 have a mental health option, where they connect you to mental health support. So if any of those are taking too long, try these.

    im talking to samaritans right now
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    @Nathan ok i talked to samaritans and they were pretty helpful.
  • CutelivejazzCutelivejazz Posts: 263 The Mix Regular
    edited November 2
    Yesterday morning I messaged childline abt my last post and they still havent responded which is pretty frustrating but i get it theyre probably too busy Im always at the bottom of everyones list.

    TW food/eating disorders, Self harm
    I feel like absolute crap I dont wanna go back to sixth form tmr dont get me wrong I love my subjects but tmr just feels like too much. My mom was mad at me yesterday and it felt like she kept draging it on and I kept apologising bc ig thats my way of asking the person to stop bc theyre scaring me she just got more pissed and told me to stop apologising and that it makes me look weak and I felt like hurting myself. When my parents first found out I self harmed (they got a call from school my maths teacher saw and reported it ig I was kinda trying to ask for help without asking for help but thats a long story) they were really pissed when I got home my mom dragged me into the living room and pulled up my sleeve and kept asking me what happened and kept yelling at me and saying things like self harm didnt exist when i was a kid and this like passive agressiveness went on for months like when theyd leave home theyd say oh dont cut yourself or once they asked me what it means to nick yourself and when I explained they were like oh so like how you cut yourself. And sometimes randomly my parrents will sigh and point it out or just stare at it while im talking to them. Yesterday I was in the kitchen eating the soup i made for my parents bc theyre sick and cant keep anything else down ik its dumb that i still dont cook for my parents but i would probably end up hurting myself or damaging smth or spilling smth given the fact that i basically have no spacial awareness. Anyway i was esting the soup and out of no where my mom said youve lost some weight you look a lot better dont eat too much. Ive felt super guilty this whole week bc I basically ate everything i ate way too much and just kinda sat there im wondering if its an eating disorder but i dont force myself to be sick or anything i just feel rly shit abt eating so much and that has lead me to self harm in the past but if i do that now my parents will see and then it will make everything worse ik what im talking abt isnt real self harm its more a mix between asking for help and attenion seeking even tho my aim wasnt rly attention seeking more trying to cope and ig hoping someone would notice and finally help. Sometimes I feel like if I just disappeared very few people would notice and even less would care a couple years ago i started having pretty dark thoughts that i wont get into every time I had an argument with someone and theyre better now ive never rly said that out loud before so ig I am now. Sometimes when things happen that are embarrassing or idk smth bad happens my brain won't stop replaying it over and over and over again and its overwhelming for me like in my brain every thought is at the same volume and my brain has like a million thoughts all at once so it gets really loud. This might sound rly stupid but sometimes I feel like my posts get ignored. It kinda hurts seeing everyone elses post get a reply and i just get "hugs" i know it sounds stupid and no one owes me a reply and its not that deep and i should get tf over it but it still hurts. I keep telling my brain its fine and no one owes me a reply or anything but it keeping going. Bc things like being ignored have happened in the past i just end up feeling unwanted or like im a burden or this community hates me like ive got to the point where everyones had enough of me and cant reply anymore like ive reached my venting limit on here and i know me saying this sounds selfish because i ask for help more than i support people but idk how idk what to say or do im not good at being comforting but anyways. Im sorry if anyone is mad at me im just trying my best and im sorry if it isn't good enough
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  • RedemptionRedemption Community Connector Posts: 5,898 Part of The Furniture
    edited November 2
    I actually don't want to go football today, I cba, Im sorry I know its first world problem, people having worse issues and I don’t want to go to a 5 a side for an hour. Its not as simple as not going, I committed to it a few days ago.
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  • NemuritaiNemuritai Posts: 129 The Mix Convert
    Yesterday morning I messaged childline abt my last post and they still havent responded which is pretty frustrating but i get it theyre probably too busy Im always at the bottom of everyones list.

    TW food/eating disorders, Self harm
    I feel like absolute crap I dont wanna go back to sixth form tmr dont get me wrong I love my subjects but tmr just feels like too much. My mom was mad at me yesterday and it felt like she kept draging it on and I kept apologising bc ig thats my way of asking the person to stop bc theyre scaring me she just got more pissed and told me to stop apologising and that it makes me look weak and I felt like hurting myself i was sat in my bed dragging my necklace along my collar bone and it went all red I know thats not self harm but its kinda my way of not self harming? I guess if that makes any sense. When my parents first found out I self harmed (they got a call from school my maths teacher saw and reported it ig I was kinda trying to ask for help without asking for help but thats a long story) they were really pissed when I got home my mom dragged me into the living room and pulled up my sleeve and kept asking me what happened and kept yelling at me and saying things like self harm didnt exist when i was a kid and this like passive agressiveness went on for months like when theyd leave home theyd say oh dont cut yourself or once they asked me what it means to nick yourself and when I explained they were like oh so like how you cut yourself. And sometimes randomly my parrents will sigh and point it out or just stare at it while im talking to them. Yesterday I was in the kitchen eating the soup i made for my parents bc theyre sick and cant keep anything else down ik its dumb that i still dont cook for my parents but i would probably end up hurting myself or damaging smth or spilling smth given the fact that i basically have no spacial awareness. Anyway i was esting the soup and out of no where my mom said youve lost some weight you look a lot better dont eat too much. Ive felt super guilty this whole week bc I basically ate everything i ate way too much and just kinda sat there im wondering if its an eating disorder but i dont force myself to be sick or anything i just feel rly shit abt eating so much and that has lead me to self harm in the past but if i do that now my parents will see and then it will make everything worse ik what im talking abt isnt real self harm its more a mix between asking for help and attenion seeking even tho my aim wasnt rly attention seeking more trying to cope and ig hoping someone would notice and finally help. Sometimes I feel like if I just disappeared very few people would notice and even less would care a couple years ago i started having pretty dark thoughts that i wont get into every time I had an argument with someone and theyre better now ive never rly said that out loud before so ig I am now. Sometimes when things happen that are embarrassing or idk smth bad happens my brain won't stop replaying it over and over and over again and its overwhelming for me like in my brain every thought is at the same volume and my brain has like a million thoughts all at once so it gets really loud. This might sound rly stupid but sometimes I feel like my posts get ignored. It kinda hurts seeing everyone elses post get a reply and i just get "hugs" i know it sounds stupid and no one owes me a reply and its not that deep and i should get tf over it but it still hurts. I keep telling my brain its fine and no one owes me a reply or anything but it keeping going. Bc things like being ignored have happened in the past i just end up feeling unwanted or like im a burden or this community hates me like ive got to the point where everyones had enough of me and cant reply anymore like ive reached my venting limit on here and i know me saying this sounds selfish because i ask for help more than i support people but idk how idk what to say or do im not good at being comforting but anyways. Im sorry if anyone is mad at me im just trying my best and im sorry if it isn't good enough

    Hi @Cutelivejazz - it sounds like you've had a lot going on lately, and it's brave of you to reach out here. I just wanted to reassure you first of all that you are not a burden to anyone, and we don't hate you at all. Sometimes posts aren't replied to because it can be hard to know what to say in response, but that doesn't mean we don't care, I promise. You're welcome to vent whenever you need to.

    I hear that you're struggling right now, and it sounds really painful to have your parents be so dismissive. Your feelings are all valid and they deserve to be heard. I know saying this won't change the situation, and I wish I could do more to help, but I'm here to listen if there's ever anything you need to vent about.

    I know the wait for a response from Childline can take a while sometimes, but that's purely because of how busy they can be, not because you aren't good enough. You deserve support.

    I can honestly relate an awful lot to what you said about feeling ignored and unwanted when people don't reply, and I want to reassure you on that point that you are not alone. I know it's painful, and it can feel really difficult when the voice in your head says those things, but I promise they aren't true. You aren't a burden - you are heard and cared about, and we're always here to listen.

    I truly hope this helps even slightly. And while it may not fix anything, I'm here for you :heart:
  • CutelivejazzCutelivejazz Posts: 263 The Mix Regular
    @Nemuritai thank you for replying and yeah your right people dont always know what to say but i feel like after a certain point of having experiances of the silent treatment or being ignored as well as having attachment and abandonment issues it feels like your brain just flicks a switch where everything is the worst case scenario like when I was out with my friend some guy said smth to her and she didnt hear them so naturally was like sorry and I kept calling her bame and was like come on and turns out the guy just wanted to compliment her costume my point is i always assume the worst case scenario bc for most of my life thats whats happened. But thank you Nemuritai
  • NemuritaiNemuritai Posts: 129 The Mix Convert
    @Cutelivejazz honestly, I can completely relate to that. I'd rather not talk about what happened, but I've had issues with being ignored and abandoned as well, and I feel exactly the same way as you described. But I'm glad I was able to help. Sending virtual hugs <3
  • KatieKatie Community Manager Posts: 1,736 Extreme Poster
    Hey there @Cutelivejazz you've done really well to explain what has been going on for you recently and how you've been feeling. It sounds like you're going through so much right now, and the Community are here for you whenever you do reach out for support.

    I also wanted to let you know that I have edited your post slightly as it included some description of self-harm which is against our guidelines as it could be triggering for others. I'm also mindful that we do have another version of this thread specifically for triggering stuff, so next time you did want to post something like this and it's something that would need a trigger warning, please pop it on the triggering thread version. Click here to go to this week's triggering venting thread.

    I wonder how are you feeling after posting this? Sometimes getting our thoughts out of our head and typed or written out can kind of help us make sense of how we are feeling - has this helped at all?
  • KatieKatie Community Manager Posts: 1,736 Extreme Poster
    Hey @toffuna101 it sounds like last night was a really difficult night for you, but you did really well to reach out to different support services for help when you were having these thoughts. I'm mindful that our Community isn't a crisis service and has limited moderator cover over evenings and nights. Thank you @so_very_tired @eylah and @Nathan for looking out for your peer and for signposting them to crisis support services.

    I hear that did you try reaching out to Shout, Childline and Samaritans, as well as to our Community here. I'm also hearing in the end you did get through to Samaritans and you found them pretty helpful which is really positive. How are you feeling today?

    Lastly, I also wanted to let you know that we do have another version of this thread specifically for triggering topics, so next time you did want to post something like this and it's something that would need a trigger warning, please pop it on the triggering thread version. Click here to go to this week's triggering venting thread.

    We hope you can get some rest today and do be gentle with yourself. You've had a pretty heavy night and we'll be here for you today if you wish to share more about how you're feeling. We will be running a Support Thread here on the boards 11am-12:30pm and also a General Chat over on Chatwee 3pm-4:30pm if you would like to come along for some chit-chat and distractions.
  • CutelivejazzCutelivejazz Posts: 263 The Mix Regular
    @katie i dont feel any better i just dont know where to go to get support i cant talk abt self harm withou being reported or censored (for obvious reasons) and I practically have no friends so it feels like im doing everything on my own and trying to mask it all underneath a fake smile its exhausting and i just want a safe person that I can talk to but it never works im all on my own
  • KatieKatie Community Manager Posts: 1,736 Extreme Poster
    @Cutelivejazz I hear you and that sounds really frustrating to feel like you can't openly talk about self-harming when it is something you are actively struggling with. Just to clarify, in our Community it's okay to use the general term "self-harm", however we do ask you don't use more specific language such as how or where you have self-harmed, as this can lead to other members possibly feeling triggered.

    You deserve support around your self-harm, and I can imagine it feeling quite isolating not being able to talk about it, or not having friends you can go to. Masking how you are feeling under a fake smile definitely does sound exhausting and maybe like you can't be your true self. Do you feel comfortable sharing how long you've been trying to mask these feelings? I also wonder if you've found anything that helps you when you have thoughts around self-harming (it could be something little)?

    There are also some support organisations that can specifically help with self-harm. I wonder if you've tried any of them? I'll pop some down below just in case:
    Battle Scars is an organisation offering support around self-harm. They run virtual peer support groups on Zoom for people aged 18+ in the UK. They also run face to face support groups in Leeds for people aged 18+, and one for people aged 16-25. Their peer support groups are at a range of times and days over the week. On their website they have a self-harm management workbook for 10-17 year-olds, and they have a worldwide private Facebook Support Group. Support is also available to parents and families of people who self-harm. They have a service called FRESH that is phone support for people aged 18+ who self-harm (England only). It's not a helpline or crisis service, but it's a project focusing on prevention, a way to obtain a FRESH view, a FRESH approach and get some FRESH ideas to help you manage your self-harm and life. For more information on their services head to their website https://www.battle-scars-self-harm.org.uk/

    The National Self Harm Network (NSHN) have a 24/7 online support forum that is closely monitored. The forum provides crisis support, information and resources, advice, discussions and distractions. They offer support to survivors & people who self-harm, as well as supporting the family and friends of those who self-harm too. For more information and to access the forum go to www.nshn.co.uk

    Recover Your Life is an organisation that deals with issues of self-harm, abuse, mental health problems, eating disorders, and more. They don't have a helpline, but they have an interactive website open 24/7 that provides advice, community support, peer help, and information. They also run an online self-help group. You can visit their website at www.recoveryourlife.com
  • maimai Posts: 96 Budding Regular
    to add to the sh specific list @Katie gave, there is also rightlines:

    https://rightlinesuk.org/

    they have a webchat open monday-friday 4pm-10pm. as well you can make an account and can message them but it cant take up to 24hrs to get a reply.

    they’re rly helpful tho.
  • toffuna101toffuna101 Posts: 3,525 Community Veteran
    Katie wrote: »
    Hey @toffuna101 it sounds like last night was a really difficult night for you, but you did really well to reach out to different support services for help when you were having these thoughts. I'm mindful that our Community isn't a crisis service and has limited moderator cover over evenings and nights. Thank you @so_very_tired @eylah and @Nathan for looking out for your peer and for signposting them to crisis support services.

    I hear that did you try reaching out to Shout, Childline and Samaritans, as well as to our Community here. I'm also hearing in the end you did get through to Samaritans and you found them pretty helpful which is really positive. How are you feeling today?

    Lastly, I also wanted to let you know that we do have another version of this thread specifically for triggering topics, so next time you did want to post something like this and it's something that would need a trigger warning, please pop it on the triggering thread version. Click here to go to this week's triggering venting thread.

    We hope you can get some rest today and do be gentle with yourself. You've had a pretty heavy night and we'll be here for you today if you wish to share more about how you're feeling. We will be running a Support Thread here on the boards 11am-12:30pm and also a General Chat over on Chatwee 3pm-4:30pm if you would like to come along for some chit-chat and distractions.

    i feel tired honestly. ok ill post on the triggering thread if i post any triggering topics.
  • CutelivejazzCutelivejazz Posts: 263 The Mix Regular
    edited November 2
    @Katie the issue isnt talking abt it i understand its triggering for people thats why I avoid mentioning it. And its not as simple as "just talking about it" or "getting support" or "finding ways to cope" no one ever really understands ive spent years trying to explain it to people but it just goes in one ear and comes out the other again that isnt anyones fault. It doesnt change the fact that its frustrating tho its more about having a safe person that I can go to somewhere or someone where i know im safe I dont need huge gestures or anything just someone to sit with me and admit it sucks and maybe a bit of a pep talk and if it does come to the point where I need support then someone who can support me but ive never really had that guilt free I feel like the best way i can describe it is when your a kid and you fall you get a plaster and a hug and it makes it all better but for me ive either got no plaster or used a makeshift plaster that in the long term does more damgage.

    Edit: Also im really sorry abt the post i was half asleep when i wrote that and should of been more mindful hopefully im not in trouble again sorry
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