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Fed up…😭
Lili5Bet
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I’m just fed up. I feel like my PTSD destroys relationships but today was another level. I thought I’d have some level of support from someone who I live with. But I got violated left, right and centre tonight. Part of me feels like it’s my fault..I shouldn’t let people in. It just keeps breaking me apart.
Last night I was in the middle of a PTSD episode. I had a comment that was said to me that I apparently “dwell over my past” during my PTSD episode and apparently let it get to me. And apparently I don’t help myself by not doing my coping strategies. IT’S HARD, and I’m trying. I do have coping strategies but they’re not your typical 54321 and breathing techniques. I raised how I felt to them earlier today, and then the comments I had just got worse. Now we’re not taking. I didn’t come down to make dinner either. I couldn’t put myself in the position where I’m treading on egg shells again..
One of the comments that got to me was “ saying “You can’t expect someone like me to cuddle you every single time you cry. I had to do it all by myself, I had no one. do you think that every time someone cuddles you, it’ll make it better?”
Do they not realise how isolating it has been on my journey..I too had go through this alone. I lost everyone who I know. I’m strongly independent, I don’t expect “cuddles” every time I cry. But I would thought to have some level of support without criticism. I can’t even hold a conversation to do with my PTSD anymore. I have no counselling or any other further support to help my PTSD.
I don’t know what to do 😭😭 was I in the wrong?
Last night I was in the middle of a PTSD episode. I had a comment that was said to me that I apparently “dwell over my past” during my PTSD episode and apparently let it get to me. And apparently I don’t help myself by not doing my coping strategies. IT’S HARD, and I’m trying. I do have coping strategies but they’re not your typical 54321 and breathing techniques. I raised how I felt to them earlier today, and then the comments I had just got worse. Now we’re not taking. I didn’t come down to make dinner either. I couldn’t put myself in the position where I’m treading on egg shells again..
One of the comments that got to me was “ saying “You can’t expect someone like me to cuddle you every single time you cry. I had to do it all by myself, I had no one. do you think that every time someone cuddles you, it’ll make it better?”
Do they not realise how isolating it has been on my journey..I too had go through this alone. I lost everyone who I know. I’m strongly independent, I don’t expect “cuddles” every time I cry. But I would thought to have some level of support without criticism. I can’t even hold a conversation to do with my PTSD anymore. I have no counselling or any other further support to help my PTSD.
I don’t know what to do 😭😭 was I in the wrong?
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Thank you so much 😭😭 I literally can’t sleep rn from today. I’m shattered but my mind really has taken over me. Yes, thank you, I appreciate that
Here's some support services here if you feel it might help
https://kellysheroes.org.uk/
These are normally pretty good they open at 6 pm till 10pm Monday to Friday and open on weekends 6pm till 11pm
https://www.myblackdog.co/
These are pretty good but only open Sunday to Wednesday 7pm till 10pm
https://knus.io/
This is a peer to peer support service, someone should set you up through a peer and chats are done through what's app
Shout is a text messaging service, open 24 hours but at night it takes a very long time to get through, text 85258
Phone service
Call 116 123
and has text service but it only works for some
https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/
I’ve been crying all morning and isolating myself..I feel constantly on edge and I’m having so many palpitations and anxiety..I didn’t sleep well last night so I’m shattered as well. Thank you for asking 🫂🫂 I think I’m really shaken up
is there anything which you can try to calm your thoughts down with? 🫂 am always here for you.
I’ve tried music and getting fresh air, but I still can’t seem to calm down..I think because my body feels like it’s under threat from last night. I spoke to my PA about this issue and she’s logged it and passing it over to the person I live with, social worker. I’m trying to distract myself and regulate but I’m still so tense. Thank you, I appreciate you
aw is there a tv show you enjoy maybe? do you like art? are you safe rn when you say ‘under threat’ just making sure you’re safe lilie. pls know im here day and night. i care so so much abt you
There is a couple of things that I can watch, yeah. Yeah, I like art. I am safe, thank you , I think it’s my PTSD making me feel like I’m not after what happened last night..
Thank you so much
Thank you @Amy22 ,
Exactly, for me my coping mechanism is actually doing something unless I feel like my anxiety makes me feel like I’d fall because of me shaking so much (which is when I put myself in my room and listen to music). I’m still feeling on edge, but also I have a weird combination of feeling numb but feeling everything at the same time. All of my upper body hurts so much from the stress.
The person I live with seems to be avoiding me now, but it’s not like I’m talking to them anyway atm..
I’m mentally and physically exhausted and drained..