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How I'm feeling

AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
To be honest, lately my feelings have been all over the place. I feel like crap a lot of the time.
I push through all the time which is cool as I have done the same thing my whole life, but sometimes it just feels difficult. Having a life like mine can naturally be hard but I always keep going, I try to get to work and all those kind of things but it really does get exhausting, and when I say how things really are people don't believe me.

I don't even know what I'm going on about anymore.

Comments

  • RedemptionRedemption Community Connector Posts: 5,044 Part of The Furniture
    We hear and understand you @Animalloverb bit we're here for you, you never have to struggle alone. Im sorry you're having a tough time.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,845 Legendary Poster
    thankyou for sharing how you feel @Animalloverb . i hear you and im listening. pls know we’re here for you as a community and you’re not alone. keep going bc things will get better <3.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    @eylah and @Redemption
    Thank you both of you. I never have a place to get my feelings out as I am alone so this means a lot I appreciate it. But I'm okay, I just struggle sometimes as being strong isn't always easy.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,845 Legendary Poster
    how are you feeling today @Animalloverb ? here if you need anything. <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    @eylah
    I'm not too good, feeling rather crap about something to be honest. But it's fine. How are you?
  • eylaheylah Posts: 8,845 Legendary Poster
    @eylah
    I'm not too good, feeling rather crap about something to be honest. But it's fine. How are you?

    here if you want to talk abt what’s causing you bother today but you don’t have to talk abt it if you don’t want to. just know im here for you you’re not alone in this bea. <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    TW- mention of body image/ weight
    just been struggling with my body image really, just finding it rather hard to look at myself and like who i see if you get what i mean

    I do a lot of fitness, I do the gym and go for walks and stuff but when my health declined I wasn't able too and it just made me feel bad about myself and since being better health wise and going back to my usual workouts no matter what I do I just can't see the person I was before.
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 2,346 Boards Champion
    Hey @Animalloverb , how are you doing today? Thank you so much for sharing this with us. From what you've said, it sounds like you've been carrying a huge amount recently, and pushing through each day takes a lot of energy.
    going back to my usual workouts no matter what I do I just can't see the person I was before.

    Reading this, I wondered whether there might almost be a sense of grief you're feeling at the moment? Coming to terms with so much change and the loss that has been a part of this too. Not being able to see the person you were before sounds extremely hard - like a past version of yourself has somehow become more and more distant. That feels upsetting, especially when you haven't been able to do the hobbies and activities you're passionate about and that make you feel like 'you'.

    I noticed you said that when you do try to open up about just how hard things are feeling right now, it doesn't always feel like other people 'get it' or believe you. I can imagine that being deeply frustrating, invalidating, and perhaps lonely too. Is there someone / a group of people in particular you were thinking about who don't believe you?

    We're here for you, and are so grateful for your trust in opening up about this. That can be particularly tough when we've had past experiences of being dismissed. You deserve to have your feelings taken seriously and for the scale of what you're feeling to be properly heard.
  • AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    @Sian321
    I'm not too good today to be honest. Yeah i guess there could be a sense of that sian. Like I'm trying to navigate the loss of myself, it's weird and very hard to explain. But yeah it is basically like I have lost myself and can't get myself back.

    A lot of people Don't believe what I say when I open up about things, I am not close to anyone at all so I am basically alone. I have been very independent since a young age so I guess I had a head start at being alone then most people.

    It is hard at times sian and I'm not going to lie but sometimes it really does affect me a lot.

    It's like nothing I say matters to anyone. They always see me as a really happy and outgoing person that they call me all sorts when my struggles do show. But that's just the way people are in this world now.
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