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Suicidal rant
bignosegirly0
Posts: 296 The Mix Regular
All I want to do is bawl my fucking eyes off. It’s so fucking depressing knowing that
I have no place in this world. I mean fucking nothing in this world. Why am I like this.
I don’t genuinely have the courage to kill myself, even when I go through the procedures.
I have no place in this world. I mean fucking nothing in this world. Why am I like this.
Everyone fucking hates me and would be glad if I were to kill myself one day.
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I read your other post here and what you've shared with us sounds really heavy. Do you feel comfortable sharing when you last attempted to go through with the procedure and if you've had medical attention since?
Here at the Mix we take your thoughts of suicide seriously. We hear you and your feelings are important. We just wanted to let you know that if you did feel at any point that you were going to act on your thoughts of suicide, then we would urge you to call the emergency services on 999, or go to your local A&E department to explain your intentions to them, so that they can support you.
You deserve support with these thoughts bignosegirly so I'll pop some signposts down below:
The National Suicide Prevention Helpline supports anyone 18+ who is experiencing thoughts of suicide. They are there to provide support and listen to your feelings. Their lines are open everyday from 6pm until midnight, offering a safe haven for anyone who needs someone to talk to. You can call them on 0800 689 5652 or 0800 689 0880. To find out more information go to https://www.spuk.org.uk/national-suicide-prevention-helpline-uk/
Staying Safe is an organisation that is designed to help you stay safe from suicidal thoughts but they are unable to provide individual support or advice. You can use the tool on their website to create your own safety plan as a way to keep you safe from your suicidal thoughts. This includes ways of getting you through how you are feeling and ways you can make your situation safer. To help keep you safe, the website is https://stayingsafe.net/
@Katie My attempt was quite recent, but it didn't leave any bad injuries, Just a rash which went away after a few minutes. What triggered it was the people at work. They were talking about whether they would have sex with the ugliest female coworkers/managers for a ton of money. I thought that it's likely they've had similar conversations about me, and that everyone in this workplace hates me because I'm unattractive, and that I'll never find love or have worth in life due to my looks. That's what prompted me to randomly attempt suicide.I can't talk to my family because they have yelled at me in the past for issues with self harm and suicide. And there's no need to call any services since I'm currently safe. I've just sent a email to a private counsellor, and I'm hoping to get a response in under five days so then we could have our first session.
it sounds like a really tricky working environment to navigate, especially with conversations like that happening around you and i'm so sorry to hear it lead to you attempting. but i'm glad you are still here with us and hopefully that counsellor gets back to you soon. it's good to see you making these steps to improve your mental health again - i'm so proud of you.
we are all here for you as always whenever you need us - you got this
sending the biggest of hugs
Thank you for the support