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I’m scared but I can’t tell anyone

I’m safe before anyone asks but as I was packing the car to go on holiday (we have set off now) I felt something and it might of just been me overthinking but I’m really scared that it’s happened again and I don’t want to tell my mum because I don’t want to ruin the holiday. I told 2 of my friends but they just laughed and started making jokes 
Edit: completely snapped at them and went “it’s not fucking funny” and left the group chat

Edit: completely snapped at them and went “it’s not fucking funny” and left the group chat

Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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i’m really sorry you’re going through this. i’m so glad you’re safe, but i can totally understand why you’d be feeling scared and unsettled. trust your instincts, if something doesn’t feel right, it’s valid, and it’s ok to take it seriously.
i’m also really sorry your friends reacted that way. that must’ve felt so isolating, especially when you needed support. you didn’t overreact by standing up for yourself, you set a boundary, and that’s ok.
if you want to talk more about what happened or just need someone to listen, we are all here for you. you don’t have to carry this alone, even if it feels like it right now!
sending you a virtual hug
They just kept saying how they can push me around in a wheel chair and stuff when it is a serious thing, I don’t need to go hospital but if it doesn’t go away I might have to go to the doctors next week
i think it’s smart to keep an eye on it and go to the doctor if it doesn’t get better. you’re doing the right thing by listening to your body!
i hope you’re ok
I would advise though that you make at least a mention of it to your mom or somebody with you so they can keep an eye on you, as you don't want fear of it to linger over you over your holiday. Even just lightly mentioning a sugar-coated version of it if your worried about them over worrying and effecting the holiday, might be worth it.
Hope you have an awesome time.