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Back to laying awake all night

Zoning out and thinking abt my birth parents whilst having this song on repeat 💔
https://youtu.be/o3NNFAuANDo?si=U1AEcCvY_1RYNYoQ
My heart is just breaking tonight and at the lowest of lows, my eyes are burning but I physically can’t cry 💔 my chest feels tight and my body feels numb ☹️ trauma really does break me apart 🥺 don’t want to feel like this anymore

My heart is just breaking tonight and at the lowest of lows, my eyes are burning but I physically can’t cry 💔 my chest feels tight and my body feels numb ☹️ trauma really does break me apart 🥺 don’t want to feel like this anymore
Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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im so sorry you were feeling like this last night. that sounds unbelievably heavy, and although i can’t fully understand what you’re going through, i’m here for you, always.
it’s ok to feel numb, it’s ok to not cry, and it’s ok to be overwhelmed by it all. what you’re feeling is valid, and it makes sense, especially with everything you’ve been through. trauma runs deep, but you are so strong for surviving it, even on the days when it feels like it’s too much!
we are always here for you - you’ve got this