Thinking bout things

ellie2000 · February 12

Do managers make up bad stuff to make them gd n make them less insecure. Looking at the times I asked 4 help and carers saying 'can't deal with this' nd ignoring signs I was gna S.H, is tht professional? I texted 'shout' tht morning 😀Also I hav a MH appointment which they arranged without my say so, is tht professional? Im not a bad person.
I got reactive afew times, is tht bad? Did they get me to do tht on purpose?
I'm back where I was. 🤬

ellie2000 · February 12

I already have therapy and I got told I was goin to carry on with it 😀

Sian321 · February 13

Hey @ellie2000 , how are you doing this afternoon? Thank you for these posts

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Looking at the times I asked 4 help and carers saying 'can't deal with this' nd ignoring signs I was gna S.

I can imagine that feeling really upsetting that your carers ignored you when you needed them. You deserve to have your feelings heard and taken seriously, Ellie. And coping with SH can feel really overwheming or scary sometimes

It's so positive you were able to contact Shout for help. Can I ask, how are you feeling today?

It sounds really positive that you're getting to continue therapy - how do you feel about that? I wonder if your therapist is aware of how you feel about your carers too. Is this something you'd feel able to talk about with them?

Im not a bad person.

You are absolutely right that you are not a bad person, Ellie. There is nothing wrong or bad about who you are as a person. And you deserve respect and care.

When you do struggle with your mental health or urges to SH, is there anything or anyone as well as Shout that helps you feel calmer? I will share an App below called Calm Harm too which specifically helps people with these feelings

https://calmharm.stem4.org.uk/

ellie2000 · February 13

@Sian321 I got told my mum tht they told her tht they r to ignore me now. Is tht allowed while I'm waiting for a new flat (cage)? I've been evicted but living there on weekends 😀 hav they still got a duty of care?

ellie2000 · February 13

Where I lived, I didn't go out. They made up reasons

ellie2000 · February 13

I'm gd now 😀😀

Sian321 · February 14

Hey @ellie2000 , I'm glad to hear that you're doing good now. What you mentioned earlier sounded really stressful for you, so I can imagine it's a relief that things are better.

You told us that you have been evicted - have I got that right? May I ask where you arte living day-to-day at the moment while you wait for your new flat?

ellie2000 · February 14

@Sian321 dw I still go there at weekends wen the management is not there, but they were told not to tlk to me ever. I noticed they turn their backs or walk passed without a worry n I don't no y? Do u?

ellie2000 · February 14

I'm at families houses 4 the time being

Sian321 · February 15

@ellie2000 , thank you for letting us know some more about your current living situation. It sounds really hurtful for your carers to ignore you when you do go back at the weekends, and I can hear you're really confused too about why they do this. It sounds really positive that for the time being you're with family instead. How has that been feeling, Ellie? Day-to-day, what is life like living in family homes again for now?

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