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something on my mind
Amy22
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I have got something on my mind that I would like to release. Sorry for wasting your time with this post, there are many others on here who need support more. But I saw a video today which mentioned someone stole a knitting pattern and sold it online. I used to copy drawings and patterns and it triggered me and the past mistakes that I made. Im a horrible person for what I did but it makes me question why do people steal from each other. This is what I used to do and now I feel the need to prevent stuff like that from happening. Sorry for wasting ur time with this post.
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I'm sorry that being exposed to that video brought back negative feelings of shame. While profiting from others' work is wrong, just copying art to learn and exercise is not something that should be criticised and is quite possibly the only way in which people can learn and share skills. Is it possible that you might be extending the feelings of shame for what happened in the past to other actions that might not be as bad?
Everyone can make mistakes, and it's difficult to draw the line but maybe it could still be helpful to remember that one wrong action does not make us bad people as a whole.
Copying or imitating to learn is a common part of the creative process, especially in art and design. It helps you develop your skills and understanding of different techniques. If your art tutors approved and encouraged this approach, then you were following their guidance.
As for the incident in your art class where you searched for assistance, that's a natural part of the learning process. Sometimes we need to seek information or inspiration from various sources to improve our work.
Feeling remorse about the past is a sign that you've grown and developed a sense of integrity. The important thing is to continue learning and evolving. If you want to prevent these kinds of situations from happening in the future, you can share your experiences and what you've learned with others who may benefit from your insights. Remember, we all make mistakes, and they can be valuable lessons that help us become better versions of ourselves.
Hope this helps
It's very normal (although frustrating of course!) to be triggered by things, so there's no need to feel ashamed or beat yourself up.
I think the most important thing to remind yourself of is what @Terry8936 said- the fact that you feel remorse shows that you've grown. Copying drawings doesn't make you a horrible person in the first place, but the uncomfortable feelings you have now are just even more proof that you've grown and changed since then. So allow yourself to feel everything, but also forgive yourself and let it go - I'm sure you have so many positive qualities it's not fair to only fixate on the mistakes you made a while ago!