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Feelings of being used
Hi guys, im so sorry, im really not attention-seeking, im just really struggling
the thing i told my ex before we were together was 'im very aware that youre going to graduate uni in 2 years and ive got 4 more to go, so im really not looking for just a 2 year relationship''
and i used to raise these concerns throughout the relationship and he used to gaslight me whenever i raised concerns saying ''i feel like youre just going to break up with me after you graduate'' and he used to act out and start saying ''youve turned me into a villian in your head, youve turned me into a bad guy'' and its literally what happened...
he broke up with me so easily after 2 years, literally with 4 sentences saying that i was being toxic and belittling and attacking and counsellors have reassured me that he was just projecting his guilt of hiding and lying to me in the relationship onto me.
but i literally just feel so incredibly used... and I'm just having a breakdown.
the thing i told him the thing i was most scared of him doing (just leaving as soon as he graduated) is the thing he did.. and I'm just so hurt. and feel so used and just feel so so disgusting with myself.. in my own skin.. just feel so stupid
like its not fair that people can manipulate you like that for their own use and just drop you as soon as you're not as easily accessible anymore and i just hurt so bad.
I'm so sorry if I'm bothering you, I'm just really struggling