This will probably sound weird but I wanted to know if anyone else is experiencing this.
Recently I’ve been hearing sounds and what might be voices in my head. A couple of weeks ago I had a really bad headache and that’s when the shouting started, which went on for about an hour or so; it’s happened a few times since.
For a few years now I’ve been untrusting of people and I strongly believe there’s no out there who isn’t out to get me. Nowadays I’m at a point that I don’t feel like bothering with anyone anymore as there’s no point getting into something that will only last a month and will overall be a huge mess. My last friendship got so intense and unstable that it made me hurt myself but I also wanted to hurt them.
I have lots of negative thoughts about myself and others but sometimes it feels like a voice is telling me these things [eg ‘they hate you’ or ‘they don’t really care’ or ‘go kill yourself’], over and over. I’m still dealing with eating problems and when I used to get rid of the food [fortunately I don’t very much anymore], even when I tried to stop myself my mind told me that if I didn’t I would get fat and I as well as everyone else would be disgusted with me. As well as that, when people speak to me, I hear something different to what they claim they actually said or I look for a hidden meaning and I’m convinced I heard it right. Sometimes I snap at them about it and when I do they say that wasn’t what they said/meant but I don’t believe them.
I feel like I’m going crazy. I’ve told my mum a bit about what’s going on and she thinks I might be hearing things that aren’t there. I’ve got a CAMHS appointment soon, do you think this something I should talk to them about?
If any of what I’ve said here has happened or is still happening to you, I’d appreciate to know I’m not the only one and how you dealt with it.